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I Hate My Life (Page 7)


May 8th, 2013
So far all I've read in these posts are about teen drama and angst. None of you kids know what real stress and real life are about. Go try doing it all on your own without mommy and daddy to pay your way then try doing with 2 screaming children. 14 yo kids crying about how they hate their lives and their parents are so evil and I just want to die, blah blah blah....grow up. Quit whining and deal with your situation like an adult and not a melodramatic 4 yo. I get that some of you may have truly bad parwnts (ie abusive) but when I see a teenager crying over her parents not letting her use the computer or taking her phone after 10 pm and she's crying about how horrible life is and she just wants to die...I just laugh...if your really that weak then let darwinism take its course.
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replied July 20th, 2013
Okay, I see what you're trying to say, but it seems like you're trying to say it in the most rude way possible. So many people on this website have attempted suicide (like myself), and this is not making it any better. In fact, it's making it worse. These people have been raped, beaten, and verbally abused, and honestly, you have no right to criticize like that. Please don't ever post like this again ANYWHERE. It can lead people to depression and/or even suicide.
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replied May 12th, 2013
My mom recently had a divorce with my step dad(we were very close) he was like my father when my father wasn't there. My dad left us when I was born. I've always felt sad that my brother and my sister new him and I have no memories of him. But when my mom remarried I felt better. But now that she's divorced we moved somewhere else. and I feel lonely because I have no f riends. I hate my new school. Ever since we moved away I felt lonely because I have no friends to hang out with and also because my mom always goes to clubs and parties. She goes every weekend. She's here during the week but I feel like she's not because she's always on her phone texting guys and when I ask her a question it takes about five minutes for her to respond becaise she's paying more attention on her phone. I feel way more things but I keep them all bottled up inside which I know is not good. But I have no one to talk to.I'm scared that my mom will just get mad at me for saying stuff. I cry almost every night. Idk why. And sometimes I have thoughts of suicide but then I realize that I'm not dumb andbthat there's got to be someone who loves me in this world so I just put a smile on my face and no one sees the hurt. I love justin bieber and he's one of the reasons I smile everyday.
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replied May 21st, 2013
I've been depressed for a while now, but it hasn't gotten to the point of suicidal thoughts yet. I don't really understand why I'm depressed, though. My parents are great, I have amazing friends, and I'm not bullied. I just feel like there's no point to living. I am literally just too lazy to bother. I hate it when people say to never kill yourself because it's not worth it. It makes me feel trapped, like there's no way out. I just smile and act happy and so far, nobody has noticed that I feel like crap. The world is filled with such idiots nowadays, and I don't even want to bother trying to tolerate it. I feel like nobody can possibly understand me, and that I will always be alone. I feel like only animals and nature accepts me, and when I'm too absorbed in electronics or too lazy to go outside it kills me, and I don't even realize. I feel stupid posting this here, but I just want to get this out.
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replied May 23rd, 2013
I am useless. I have no reason to live. I tried suicide Monday but apparently didn't take enough pills. I am currently seeing a counselor (because the State Mental Hospital didn't have any bed available), but it's just talking to someone else about my problems. I have 4 sisters but they don't really get involved in my problems. I am a widow of 4 years & I am so lonely! I have a dauschund named Pugsley who licks the tears off my face but that really doesn't help. Help! I can't sleep, I can't eat & I am afraid to leave my house. I live in the woods on 7 acres & am very isolated. My sisters never call to check on me & they never come to see me. I don't know what else to do but keep going to therapy but I don't think it will do any good.
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replied May 25th, 2013
Now we are getting divorced just because I hate living in the Bangladesh! My life has
always sucked and just when I find a place to call home - it is pulled from under
me
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replied June 1st, 2013
college
my parents fking spend 60K a year on my sis to go to college, and they wont fking spend a dime on me...

No point in living now, as i will be at mcdonalds for life now.
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replied July 2nd, 2013
Why I Hate My Life
Look, I grew up in a upper middle class family, I had friends, a mother that always looked after me, we went on vacations, I got laid for the first time at 16, I had a lot of great memories in my life so why at 20 do I hate my life? Sounds like this kid had it pretty good right? Wrong, all that stuff fades man or all that stuff faded rather. My relationship with my mom is bad, I feel like I don't have any real friends anymore, I despise this big house, I lost my job after smoking too much, I dropped out of school, I've failed at every business venture i've ever pursued, my music career is still at square one, I haven't had sex since that one time and I spend my days starring at a laptop screen pretending to get stuff done. Im stuck, i'm just another wash up still living at his mom's house. And when I'm not here, when I'm chillen with people i have this stigma attached to me because of something that happened 3 years ago, yeah i runaway from home, I sprayed painted my school, cops showed up , helicopters showed up, I freaked out and I dipped to Canada. I was 17, and still to this day these Great Falls schmucks be telling me behind my back and to my face that "I've lost respect for you" word dude, that's just fantastic. I'm just so tired of my high school friends man, I wanna start a new life and not be constantly reminded of my past. And it's not just them, being in this house is a remember, I mean my life has regressed to what it was my junior year in high school. I'm constantly by myself, I don't let anyone in, I hide in my room like 24/7. It's always the same excuse, If I wasn't so high right now i'd go downstairs and talk to my parents, get on better terms with my mom, with my stepdad, I'd go for a run, I'd wake up and go do something today, but I don't. I stay in this room and bask in my nothingness, no thoughts, just starring at youtube videos and letting that occupy my mind so I won't have to think for that very moment, I can stay in limbo a little longer, just a little longer let me forget what a piece of junk I am. The piece of junk i've become. And it' not like I don't have potential, theirs so much stuff I've done 50%, for example, I started a online t-shirt business about two years a go, I saved up and bought Adobe Illustrator, learned how to use it, and for months made cool logos and other designs. I got really good at it and I got to the point where I narrowed my designs to a top 10. I released it on my Facebook to see what people would think and people responded dude, people thought my work was dope and it was. I had some really original designs that kept it simple, like I had one shirt that read "Millionaire Dropouts" in a kind of baseball type font and I actually got around to printing a pack of 30 of them. Still as far as printing the other designs, setting up a website, and marketing.never got around to it, whatever the excuse was. And it's the same thing with my music, it's the same thing with all my relationships, no matter how important they are to me after a while I lose interest, i have a curse of not giving a darn. And thats why I hate my life
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replied July 4th, 2013
Even my mom ignores me and slap at the age of 23... She only love his son. Mine is a joint family and no one like me.. Even my brother scolds me infront of everyone. From my childhood every person closest to me became so far to me because of my mother. She scolds me in a vulgar language. Now because of this people i am hurting my lover.. I left him lonely.. I am a cheater.. These ppl wont accept him.. So i told him to forget me.. But i itself is not able to forget him and really dont know about him.. I really love him soo much but because of my parents have to forget him... I want to die no one loves me and the ppl i love are going far away from me.. This my fate i want to die.. God plzz take me ..
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replied July 8th, 2013
All the time, one moment I'm all fine, next moment i just want to rip mine or someone elses head off! Gah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know what's wrong with me!!!!! I know I'm supposed to have some mood swings at this age.... But I don't know about this. I just................ I'm not the kind of person who does well with emotions. I always keep all my emotions locked up inside. I always want to cry for some reason. I've never cried once in my life not even when I almost got seriously hurt. *sigh* I just don't know what to do... why does make me so mad???!!!!!!!
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replied July 11th, 2013
Dying inside
God hates me. My life has thrown one bad thing after another at me. I wonder why me. I suffer from anxiety and depression. I also have adhd. My husband thinks its just an excuse for me to hide behind. He makes fun of m gor taking pills and says I am craxy. He said its my fault for not getting help even though I see a counselor, psychiatrist and take medication. I don't know what to do anymore but i am dying inside. I have 5 beautiful kids who need me so I am not going to kill myself but I feel dead inside.
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replied July 18th, 2013
I feel your pain and anguish. It's like being in Pergatory on earth. Trapped.

We have been in family counseling and individual counseling for our extremely difficult ADHD/ODD teen for 6 & 1/2 months. I have an appt. with a therapist in 4 days to get scheduled with the psychiatrist which won't be until mid September. I need help now, but my only choice is going to the ER. My primary Dr. wouldn't adjust my meds and my pain Dr. won't either, but took me off my Cymbalta due to side effects and added a med that makes me feel impaired and unable to drive at times. I am trying desperately to stick out the withdrawals of cymbalta and allow time for my body to adjust to the new medication but, crying at the drop of a hat or thoughts of suicide makes me feel so guilty.

I have another child as well. I know that any harm to myself or divorce would ruin my family, especially my daughter who is the main source of my pain. I want to leave away from the chaos and pain, but how can I abandon my family? This just makes me cry even worse. Hitting a wall in every direction. I can't even get the medical help I need, because we are always consumed and overwhelmed with all of her appt.'s emotionally and financially. Then I think about her turning 18 in 3yrs and that she will move out of the house. She failed some of her classes last year and barely passed her freshman year. I need to make sure she can get a job or go to college in order to leave. My husband frequently tells me that he doesn't want to hear what happened during the day that is upsetting me. This is so mentally distressing for me. My partner/ support person doesn't care how bad it has been for me on some days and just shuts me down. He states "I know, I know...I don't want to hear it". This just crushes me and I can't help but cry. We did start marriage counseling but have only had 1 session. I feel like it is all too little to late and I am burnt out and raw over the things that just keep happening and don't stop regardless of how many times I ask for them to stop. I too feel dead inside, but also like it's necessary for self preservation. Maybe I should temporarily leave. Do I leave with my son who doesn't have any issues, so he doesn't have to endure the fighting? My husband doesn't understand how bad it is to be with her all day, after day since school is out and she won't leave the house and has no friends. She just manipulates her brother and does things to upset him and fight all the time.

My personality has definitely changed for the worse and I hate who I have become. God doesn't hate you! Your kids need you, your husband does, but he needs to be involved with your therapy or marriage counseling. If our husbands can't emotionally support us, then why are we with them? I have stated several times that I can't be here like this and spend the night at friends houses. I hope things get better for you. We both need some hope of relief and improvement to keep going.
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replied July 31st, 2013
anyone?
hey guys guess its my turn, I probably shouldnt even be complianing to you but I have no one else to talk to I've lost all of my friends for reasons that I don't even understand I don't have a job, im forced to continue going to college even though I already owe 16,500 to various people with no way to pay any of it back. I just feel like im drowning in the dicesions every one is making for me, cause the ones i've made are all wrong and I don't know what else to do. and the worst part is I cant tell anyone about it. my parents mean well and want to help just wind up doing the exact opposite. and since January I've been debating whether or not to kill myself and I think after the day im having thinking that must be the only solution were everybody wins my parents wont keep having to bail me out of jail for stuff that got pinned on me by people I thought were my friends it just seems like the only win win option I have...I don't like saying that and have always tried to be a positive person but that is a thing of the past
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replied August 27th, 2013
Don't do it.
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replied August 27th, 2013
Don't do it.
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replied August 27th, 2013
Don't do it.
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replied January 9th, 2014
Hi, This is Milli. I am writing this to get answer for the question ..Why God gives everything to some people and nothing to some people irrespective of sin or good. He gave me a worst life compared to the people in my level.
Since my childhood I didn't even a single thing that I want(study, money, entertainment..etc). Though I am not worried about that. But now I lost my Love because of my parents. Though I am not worried about. And I got married to a person according to my parents wish. Don't think I am boasting. I am a beautiful lady and he looks like a chimpanzee. Its not a problem. He has an attitude
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replied January 9th, 2014
He has such an irritating attitude like anything..I am not at all happy with him..I tried to be happy..but it wasn't possible at any cost.. really I HATE MY LIFE..really..
there is no definition for happiness in my life..
I want to die.. i hate my life..i hate my life...
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replied April 1st, 2014
Did it ever occur to some of you that your parents hate their lives too, and that they are as stressed as you are, and are just reacting, like you are. They however, can not contemplate quitting life - they have to feed you, they have to get up and work whatever job they have. They have to tolerate your adolescent fantasies, and perceptions, knowing that they are a phase, a phase they too went through. They are as frustrated by you as much as they love you, and likely can't tell you as they should, because you both put up walls and hold grudges. It makes me sad to live in this world.
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replied April 21st, 2014
Look on the bright side. As soon as you get old enough, you can get away and never come back. As for now, you need to just ignore and walk away from these things. You can't keep focusing on this. The more you focus on it, the more death thoughts will come. Please, don't do this...
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replied June 8th, 2014
Trust me I know what its like to be down. I have a beautiful sister who I don't know, I had a mother who will no longer get to meet her potential son in law and grandchildren. My father is out on the streets and death already took his best friend. Depression constantly makes me push away worth while things and important people. I've been patronized by all sorts of councilors and anti depressants made me sick. Literally right now I'm waiting for a freak accident or some way out. I'd pay someone to stab or shoot me I'm done with life let me pass with my mother im just so miserable
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