Hi..Im a 19 year old male. Looking back at life, I realize I acted like I was gay without realizing it. In grade 8 I had virtually no guy friends, but plenty of friends who were girls... And yet I never really attempted to do any with any of them even tho they were attractive. I wonder was it because I was to nervous, to immature or perhaps gay.
I played piano as a kid and as I got into high school I was always involved in band, and choir. I told myself I did choir because there was nothing but girls.. But maybe I was showing homosexual tendencies. Ive always felt like I was different from all the other guys, but I thought I was more mature and down to earth. They were always ass holes to the girls... I tried to be the nice guy. In high school I was always afraid to get beat up even though im a pretty big guy, I wasnt very aggressive, but I was very health questiony like a girl. Ive been attracted to girls before, but it seems I would desperately liek a girl, until she liked me.. Then I wouldnt like her any more and move on to the next one. Ive been in 4 situations where the intention has been to have intercourse, and in each, there has been an erection prollem that has made it impossible.. I get semi hard, enough for maybe oral but not for satisfying penetration.. I always had excuses for these times ie.. Ive had to much to drink. When I masterbate I think of women, I look at women in porn, but I am into anal with women, which leads me to believe that my true interest is anal with men, anyways.. Sory for the long post... Any insight would be appreciated
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replied August 26th, 2006
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Have you ever tryied anything with a guy? Are you attracted to them? I have an idea...Have you ever heard of manga?! Well its a japanese graphic art book...I know this pri sounds redickulous, but look into. There are different types...(sexual type) one is yuri...Witch is girl on girl...The second (my fav) is yaoi guy on guy(fake,gravition,only the ring finger knows, and wild rock are the best in my opinion)hentai witch is basicly just sexy with girl on guy or kinky stuff(most is not my thing....Alians is when I just draw the damn line!) dont be shy to try it...I'm a girl and i'm getting married to a man(he rocks my kitty!) but I do fanisize of being in a sexual relationship with a female... I love girls...I always have... Well I hope you find what your looking for!Dont let life wait for you cause it wont!
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