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I'm the Ugliest Piece of Crap to Ever Exist. (Page 1)

I believe that much of my low self-esteem stems from my disappointment and hatred of my looks. I have been suggested to go to get counselling, but the counsellors basically say the same meaningless answers to me.

I know it's such a pointless thing to be upset about, but the instant people see my face, they either turn away in disgust. If not, then i'll just assume that they are anyway. People at school have made sure that I remember that i'm ugly and a waste of oxygen everyday.

I don't ever want to be in a relationship with any one since I don't want to spread my genetic scum. I honestly would not want to have my children take after me and to go through the same experiences I have. I have zero friends...In highschool everyone has already chosen their cliche to be with anyway. Then again, I avoid school so much mainly because I don't want to pain everyone there by having to look at my face.

I take care of myself, and am healthy, but I can't help but my efforts are pointless because even the people treat me like a lesser being because of my appearance.

Only my mom doesn't...I know she loves me very much, but sometimes I wish that she didn't exist so I could go kill myself.

I feel like such a pathetic loser to make such a dramatic deal about it...But I just had to tell someone. Even if it's online...At least I can have some anonymity ...
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First Helper shyenne
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replied March 26th, 2006
Hello there. I am sorry to hear that you are feeling so down. You must remember that beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Also, it is what you think about yourself that counts the most. Do not think or care about what others think of you. Are you still in high school? If so, I suggest that you not even bother with the people at your school. I have to say that I know how you feel. I have two sisters that everyone thinks are beautiful and I was never told that I was. It's hard, but what I worked on most was not what was on the outside but what was on the inside. I know, that sounds cheesy but I found that it really helped me to work on my personality. People might judge you first based on how you look but they stick around for who you are on the inside. At least that is how I feel. Anyway, I am rambling a bit but just know that I know where you are coming from. If you would like to talk, you can pm me.
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replied April 23rd, 2006
I doubt you're even ugly at all...


I totally agree with that last person too, it's the inside that counts:)
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replied August 1st, 2012
The inside doesn't matter because people only see what's in the outside. Do you really think anybody gives a crap that your a good person? No, they will judge you base on your looks. They will size you up and down and wonder why your so fat , wow she's ugly, oh my God she's so stupid. Very rare they will tell themselves wow she's ugly but so smart. Do you ever see ugly models on tv or in magazines? No. Because beauty sells , and sex appeal sells. Sure I can lose weight, but I cannot change my face or make myself smart. My husband had porn addiction and he told me that I wasn't vey pretty , and that he did not find me very sexy. Now he tells me that he is now cured from his addiction and that he finds me attractive now. He told me that he only said those mean things to me because he was sick. Maybe he's telling the truth, but it doesn't make it any easier to remember that he felt that I wasn't very attractive. I'm 45 it's too late for me I will only get uglier over time
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replied January 9th, 2014
I totally agree with shyenne.
There's almost no hope for people like us Solitude, but that is not a reason to give up on life!
Since 15 i love the same woman, she is the most perfect person in the world! But it was impossible to be close to her we were just to different. Between 15 and 24 years old ive seen her make friends and boyfriends, and i was so jealous of them what i wanted to kill them. But when i finished my studies and started working i saw an opportunity to make things better and to help her!
All the money that i had left at the end of the month i would give to her, to help her have a better life!
Don't give up on life! You will find someone that you will care about and that changes everything!
I'm 67 years old, i never kissed anyone, and i'm on the end of my life. The woman i love has 68 years old and has 2 grandchildren. She is happy,she says me "hello" sometimes when she sees me in the street, and i still send her all the money that i have at the end of the month secretly.
So as you can see, your life can be hard but if you choose to do something good, when you become old like me, you see that it had some meaning, and that it was worth it.
I'm going to die as i lived, alone. But i believe that when the moment comes i'll think "it was worth it".
I hope that my story helps you see that not all is bad, you can do good and find happiness on that.
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replied July 10th, 2007
Re: I'm the Ugliest Piece of Crap to Ever Exist.
i bet ur not ugly at all! i know how it feels though, i hate so much the way i look n there's nothing i can do about it n iv missed so much time off school cuz i dont want anyone to see me. but im so sure ur not ugly at all so dont think it.
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replied July 10th, 2007
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hi
can i please see a picture of you

im here to talk if you ever just need someone to talk to
im really down to earth and opinionated
im a pretty nice person to talk to and i listen well
PM me if ya like
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replied July 10th, 2007
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Hi There
Beauty comes from WITHIN..........not the outter shell of a person. If a person is so sahllow they can not see what a wonderful and caring person you are, the hell iwth them. They do not deserve to be your friend. Its not what a person looks like, the color of their skin etc, its how you treat other people................I'll be your friend..........I am always here. I know there a lots of others here who will be your friend as well. We don't care what you look like or what you think you look like.........you come across as being a very nice person. And, that all that matters to me! Cool
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replied July 10th, 2007
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i hate how shallow people are these days

im not perfect but im beautiful.
i believe taht and i dont care what anyone else thinks
i think my ears are too big and my nose is too big. and my teeth are ugly
but i love myself
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replied July 11th, 2007
Cheer Up!
No one is ugly.
It sounds to me like you are very very depressed.
Please seek medical advice.
You need to start enjoying life.
Life is too darn short to have the awful attitude you do.
Love yourself.
Read up on the subject.
Self esteem.
Good Luck to You!

Lorrie
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replied July 12th, 2007
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DONT seek medical advice and let them drug you up on dope
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replied July 16th, 2007
Hi
Just be happy u dont look like me............lol



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replied July 16th, 2007
Lol you look fine to me man. You look like any normal person should look like.
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replied July 17th, 2007
My Take On This Subject
I have always been the type of person that never looked for the most hansom man to be with. When I was young and in school.. I felt like I went through an ackward stage while growing up. And during that time all of the girls would treat me really bad.. and guys also.
Sure.. I did not have much going for me back then... but I knew that some where deep inside of me I was going to be different.
The people at school would snicker when I would have a boyfriend that they did not approve of... and try to compair me to him as if it was some sort of scocial climbing that we were participating in. They did not find him attractive... he was cute in his own way but a little nerdy.
When I graduated high school I was told that I was pretty.... but I still took it hard on myself and thought.."that person was just being nice when they said that". There would be times I could look in the mirror and see a pretty girl looking back at me... and then there would be other days when I would look at myself and think I was the ugliest person on the face of the earth and did not diserve to even be here.
I always wanted to be married with children.
I met my husband when I went out with a girlfriend at a club. Still that cute guy but still a little on the nerdy side. He has always told me that he things I am beautiful.. even when I don't look my best and feel my best. I use to tell him to be quiet and not talk to me that way but now I am trying to except it more from him... that is his way of telling me he loves me for who I am. Yes some days I may wake up and feel completely aweful about myself think I am not pretty enough to live this life... and other days I wake up and I think... "damn I am cute.." the point is... I have found love and cutting myself down not only hurts me.... but hurts my husbands feelings also... because he thinks of me as beautiful...even after 13 years of marriage.
I am trying daily to repair my thoughts about myself... when I see something I don't like about myself I try to find other things I like about myself and they are not always looks... because my beauty is more then skin deep.. I love and care for others and I dedicate myself to be a good person to all... even to thoughs that try to hurt me... I have been that way for 34 years and I will try to continue for the rest of my days on this earth... however long that may be..


Oh, Please remember this... High School is just a distant memory when you become an adult. Those people that make you feel bad today will not matter to you in the future... You make your life great.. it starts by trying to work on your inner self first.

My grandma once told me "True beauty is found on the inside."
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replied July 17th, 2007
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high school sucks just drop out
lol
jk jk dont listen to me
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replied July 18th, 2007
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Re: Hi There
Fairy*Godmother wrote:
Beauty comes from WITHIN..........not the outter shell of a person. If a person is so sahllow they can not see what a wonderful and caring person you are, the hell iwth them. They do not deserve to be your friend. Its not what a person looks like, the color of their skin etc, its how you treat other people................I'll be your friend..........I am always here. I know there a lots of others here who will be your friend as well. We don't care what you look like or what you think you look like.........you come across as being a very nice person. And, that all that matters to me! Cool


I totally agree! You're probably a very beautiful person. I am sure that you could make friends at school you just have to be there to meet them. I wish I could see a picture of you though. I will be your friend to no matter WHAT you look like! If you're in high school right now. Sometimes in school people judge and make fun of people because they're too fat too skinny etc. I remember when I was in grade 9 people used to make fun of me because I was over weight and my self esteem dropped I didn't want to go to school.. Infact I avoided it like you did. THEN one day I just thought WHO are these people to determine MY future! (it took me till grade 11 to realize this) I went on in life at high school hating it totally I wouldn't even eat lunch at school I was so embarrassed about my weight. HOWEVER it made me stronger. I volunteered in a daycare (kids don't care what you look like) I went on to college for my ECE and I did really well, during college people were more grown up really nice. I made ALOT of friends it was nothing like highschool. In college I lost weight. I ended up getting my diploma and then I went to university and while I was university I was a model. Its funny because I thought that I was such a gross loser. ITs funny though because when I was modelling.. I still felt kinda gross.. HOWEVER, NOW I am just happy with my life and what I do.. I am a teacher. I can help children learn. I am not too worried about my looks anymore I am more so worried about helping. EVERYone is here for a reason. AND I think that you're probably going to get out of this weird teenager stage and come out a beautiful butterfly! Oh and what is wrong with your face? Because I can't really see much being wrong PM me a picture. Also EVERYONE is different. I think that EVERYONE is BEAUTIFUL in there own way. I am sure that you have some great qualities too. You should write out a list of your good qualities inside and out. You sound nice PM me if you want!
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replied July 18th, 2007
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Re: Hi
Michaellewis09 wrote:
Just be happy u dont look like me............lol





I don't think that you're ugly at all.. I think that you are handsome and I really like your eyes!
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replied July 29th, 2007
It's like I wrote this.. Crying or Very sad And btw, you can't be the ugliest piece of crap to ever exist because that's my current occupation. Sad
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replied July 29th, 2007
Solitude and Kureji, stay strong. I know its way too cliche, but it is truly whats going to get you to where you want to be. pm me sometime if you want to talk, my post on here would just be way to long.
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replied July 30th, 2007
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Hey there.. I was wondering.. How old are you?
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replied June 11th, 2009
Less inferior genes in genetic pool = better for all.
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replied June 11th, 2009
I feel the same way and I am 23 years old.I am fat and I feel very ugly.If I wasn't born,I wouldn't be embarrassing my parents since I am ugly.
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