Shell
dont think you are been an idiot! You are far from one!
Your body has been through so much you wouldnt be normal if you wern't feeling tearful etc. I had a tah last november, I was 34 at the time and was suffering from depression, and about 3 weeks after my operation it suddenly hit me that I couldnt have any more children! (i have 1 boy though who is 13 and wasnt able to have anymore due to having polycistic ovaries and other problems, so I had 12 years of trying for another and lots of tests and then been turned down for ivf treatment) there was always a slight hope in the back of my mind before I had my op that I may become pregnant though and after my op it finalised that I would never become a mum again. It takes so much out of you having a hysterectomy but..........12 months on and I am a new person, I have everol 50 hrt patches, no more painful periods, no more pmt, no more acne and you mentioned sleeping patterns, the first few weeks were a nightmare after my op but I soon got into a sleeping pattern and if I couldnt sleep because I had too much on my mind I would read (still do) until I was tired and focus on what I was reading rather than other things, so please hang on in there things will get better, try and be positive. Having a good doctor helps too? I moved to mallorca 2 months after my operation and I still keep in touch with my doctor in the uk for advice.
Keep you chin up and I hope things get better for you
rosie