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Still fighting this opiate addiction

So I’ve been addicted off and on for 13 years. Been to rehab 4 times. I’m really tired of this life. I just lost another IT job because of pills. Missing days cause I’m in WDs. I’ll have Suboxone to help me with the WDs but every time I got paid I would go spend my whole check on pills. Like I don’t understand what clicks in my head. I’ll be fine for 2 weeks taking pieces of Suboxone then I get money in my hand and boom. But now I just spent my last check so can’t buy anymore pills. I do have a few subs to take for the WDs so I’m gonna try to ween my self down and off of those within a week or so. I’m just so dam tired of this life this is not the way we were meant to live.
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replied July 20th, 2019
Hello and welcome to EHF !

I went through your query and i understand your concern.I can understand your trouble. You need a good addiction medicine specialist and a good psychotherapist to help you with cognitive behavioural therapies and other rehabs.

Take care
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replied September 30th, 2019
Hey buddy, I know exactly how you feel and want you to know that it is normal! That sick and tired feeling is exactly what you need to hold on to and that is what is going to get you through the hard days. Once you are ready to move on from the grind of always chasing, you can start to retrain your brain to live a more normal life without the pills. It doesn't happen overnight but with subs or zubsolve (which is what i have been taking and is basically the same thing but in a pill that dissolves). It is also a good idea to have someone check on you and help you stay on the straight and narrow or someone you can call to talk to when you feel like going backwards. I hope you keep pressing on and pull through this. It is possible and there is light at the end of the tunnel. Prayer is powerful my brother, you dont have to go through this alone. Be blessed and good luck! i will check back on this thread so if you need to vent.....feel free, I will listen.
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