I hate it when other people feel like you have described. I will do everything in my power to make someone else happy, smile or laugh. I try to not concentrate on my own feelings, and it seems to help by just wanting to make someone else happy. YOu very well could be depressed, I've been for over 30 years! I have learned to turn NEGATIVE into POSITIVE.......you have to make you happy first. You are young and I hope it doenst; take you half as long to learn this lesson as it did for me. You want to feel happy? Make someone else happy. You could start here on eHealth. I coe here everyday, have since 2003 and try to find someone, anyone that needs a LIFT! Volunteer at an animal shelter or nursing home........help out, stay focused on doing something good for others...........you'll get that happy feeling! Hope this has helped you some!