I can't stop. It's this whole cycle. It's too hard to eat. I just don't know what to do. I won't eat for a while, but after a couple days I can't stand the feeling and binge and purge.
It's too hard to eat. And it's too hard to keep any food down. I don't wanna do this anymore. I just want an easier way to stay healthy.
I've already been inpatient twice, where I was forced to gain a lot of weight. (I gained so much soo fast.) And now I'm not severely underweight, but I still struggle with eating normally.
My outpatient doctor told me to follow a meal plan. I can't. It's too difficult. I can't follow it...I can't bring myself to eat all of that. And one time I did try the meal plan out for a day, and I gained 3 pounds in a day. I just don't wanna do this anymore. Is there an easier way to get nutrition? My doctor told me that I'm malnourished. He says even though I'm not that thin (I'm just slightly underweight) , he says all my symptoms such as no energy, being cold, feeling faint, etc, are caused by not eating the right foods and eating enough. And plus throwing up what I eat only makes it worse.
I just want to know what I can do! Is there any easier way to go about not being malnourished and getting all the nutrition and feeling healthy without difficult meal plans? I wish there was like a magic pill that I could take once a day and I wouldn't have to touch food at all, but I'd get everything I'd need lol. But that's not gonna happen...I just can't do this without feeling crazy every time I eat a bite of food. Yeahh, it's either remain in control and don't eat it, or feel driven by some machine to just eat as fast as I can even though I'm not even hungry. I hate the whole food thing. I don't know why me of all people have to have this whole problem with food.
I don't know what to do. Please help me if you can...