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My Family thinks im insane, and wont listen to me anymore. They are concerned because I talk to myself, I see shadows moving around in front of me all the time, i talk to them and they talk back, I make up people and we converse back and forth every day. I rarely leave my apartment, i sleep almost all day most days, Im suicidal, incredibly irratable, i brick up my doors and windows with objects that will make a lot of noise if the door or window should open. I only go out after midnight. If i see more than a few people at my store, i walk all the way back home instead of going inside. I cannot close my eyes when in the shower for fear that the shadows will attack me, I constantly feel that the world isn't real, and that people are out to kill me. I dont trust anyone, especially my doctors. I want to get better but I also want to keep away from help, this thing in me wont let me seek help....i do hear their voices...most times i act like im on a cell phone to make it seem more re

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replied October 1st, 2011
Schizophrenia Answer A27294
Hello and welcome to e health forum.

From the description of your history, it is evident that you indeed have schizophrenia and you need immediate and proper medical attention and treatment.

You will need to make up your mind and seek treatment.

You might consult a psychiatrist who can examine you and provide you proper and timely help.

Avoiding help can cause worsening of your condition and danger to yourself.

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