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I dont care about my life or what happens to me anymore, help?

Im a 19 year old girl who is overweight with nothing going on in my life. I am always told that I am ugly and fat but when I look in the mirror I dont understand why people view me this way. I see girls who have boyfriends who treat them like princesses and I cant help but wonder why that cant be me. I am a nice, sweet, and giving person and it seems as though I dont get any of the love of kindness I give back. So many girls my age are so happy and doing better than I am. I just dont understand why I am in so much pain when I dont do anything wrong. I dont do drugs, I dont hurt people, I dont do alot of things most people my age do so why do I have to go through this. Im not suicidal but I honestly dont care if I die tomorrow. I will never take my own life but at times I dont care if I die. I know that people have worser lives than me and I always use that as a way to never give up, but my pain has grown so much over the years that I cant take it anymore. I dont why I was put on this earth to just be in pain.
I dont know what to do anymore, I want to go away to college and meet new people but if im not accepted, I will probably have a break down. Nothing ever works out for me. My worst fear is that I will never find happiness or peace mentally, physically, and love wise. I never had a boyfriend and fear that I never will find a guy that will love and adore me. Im not book smart and fear that I will fail, I lost alot of my friends because I stop hanging out with them due to me being so unhappy, I fear I will never find good friends again.
Please someone give me hope and helpful advice. Im on the verge of a breakdown please help me.
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replied December 30th, 2012
Hey there
Have you ever thought of signing up for counceling? Im a 17 year old male with depression just like you and i signed up recently and it has made a big difference in my life.
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replied December 30th, 2012
no ive never had counseling. idk if that will help and I dont know where to begin if I wanted counseling.

Im glad to hear that is has made a difference in your.
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