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hitting myself when angry (Page 2)


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April 20th, 2010
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Everyone gets depressed and angry at some time..It's how you deal with it that counts..This is where a therapist would help you in dealing with what is happening..

You ae not nuts!!!!!!!!!!No one deserves to be the punching doll, to be berated, mentally or physically hurt..What you deserve is a chance in knowing that whatever is causing your pain that you can deal with it..Get in control of what is happening wiht you..Write it down in a journal..Run, hike, cut the yard, do errands for someone else but get out and enjoy life more..I hope you do get to a therapist..

Life is beautiful it really is..Please get the mental health with a therapist and talk with your boyfriend..k
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replied April 24th, 2010
Wow Im a Christian and dont hit myself often but I get to a point with the way I feel about myself that I feel I need to punish myself. I to dont know what to do. I find comfort oddly seeing other people have the same problem. I do not want to do this but something in me gives in to the thought of punishment. I believe my body is a temple and that what Im doing is wrong. But my question is how do I come to a point that I can trust myself to never do this again. I love the idea of journaling and will start there but will move on to thearpy if that doesnt seam to be helpful. I pray each one of you will be healed completely along with myself from this bondage. Will tons of love to you all! K.
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replied April 25th, 2010
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Momasita I hope and pray you can overcome this pain..

we need to learn that we have to say no--not maybe..say no more period..No ifs or buts..If there is not a chemical imbalance that requires medication, then there must be a physical or mental cause..A therapist can help get to the bottom of the cause..I believe in prayer as well..God please bring an healing end to self harm in all forms..k
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replied May 11th, 2010
When I was younger I was bullied for a number of years. Whole gangs of people would hit me or call me the names, the most memorable of which were "ugly" and "stupid". Boys would pretend to go out with me and then dump me in a group of crowded people so they all laughed. At the time my parents said, "ignore them, be brave" and every day for three years I put my school uniform on and set off for school. I honestly don't know why I didn't crack up.
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replied September 14th, 2015
that is super messed up...sorry to hear about that and hope u feel better about urself now
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replied May 26th, 2010
Punching your face
I also have this problem. It happens about once a month.. i will get very upset and angry and look around at all the things i want to break but then i think 'well if i kick that door in.. i'll have to replace it' etc. So i end up turning it on myself and punching myself in the face over and over again until i can't take anymore. I see a lot of people seem to punch themselves in areas that are not noticable to others but what i'm doing isnt for attention because afterwards when i've got a black eye and bruised face i start to panic knowing that people are going to see it and my excuses are getting old. I'm so afraid of someone finding out what i do to myself yet at the same time i get no relief from punching anything other then my face. I had a abusive childhood and now that i'm older i'm wondering if it's programed in me to abuse myself when im hurting and angry because nobody else is anymore...
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replied June 13th, 2010
I feel reassured that i am not alone on this issue. I always thought that self harm was about cutting. I always punch myself in the face and never think anything of it. When i get down it comforts me but i always got headaches and sometimes feel concussed. I punch in batches of 50 nearly every day. Maybe i will get some sort of brain damage but i feel that my mind is damaged anyway so whatever happens happens.
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replied June 21st, 2010
Pregnant and harming
I have wanted to hit myself for the past hour or two as my husband and I had a stupid fight. Reading that others are going through this helps. I don't feel so alone. I am amazed my husband puts up with my sometimes. As I mentioned in a post I am pregnant. I am only 3 months so I have 6 months left of mood swings, I also found out that I could be losing my job which is putting my under more stress.

I really want a punch bag thats not my head. . . . . . . I want to be able to feel the anger coming out of me.

I totally understand what you are saying about brain damage as I am sure I have caused myself some as well. My memory is poor and I get dizzy spells.
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replied June 30th, 2010
i beat myself
i know just what all of u are feeling and it makes me feel better now that i know others have done this, a while ago i hit myself so bad over and over that i blacked alot of the side of my face and gave myself a swollen eye. also i has dark scars from where ive cut my fore arm too deeps. Idk why, i fell like i deserve it, and it feels good, even ehrn i get upset to just scratch my face makes me feel better. what is this called?
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replied July 30th, 2010
Cherry Blossom, your post sounds like I wrote it. Ot's exactly what I'm going through. A few yrs ago I was in a car crash following this I had councelling for post traumatic stress but included in ths was anger management as I used to hit myself as a way of venting my frustration, anger, anxiety and the feeling of no control. I fully recovered from PTSD and have met a lovely man who makes me so happy but unfortunatly his work commitments put pressure on our relationship to the point of bringing back the familiar feelings of frustration and anger. I don't know why I cant stop myself hitting but I just dont think hitting a pillow as is always adviced releases the tensions in the same way. I read a book along side my previous councelling which after revently starting self harming again, I think will be a good idea to dig back out. You guys may also want to try a self help book.
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replied August 1st, 2010
For years I have dealt with an anger problem. Over the time the harm i caused my body has start as smashing my head into a metal door, a cinder block wall, or a wood beam. I know have moved to burning myself with a cig. The only reason I can figure I do it is do to the rage I have I can't take it out on my wife and kids. After harming myself I have a feeling of worthlessness and self pity. The scars on my head and arms really tell of a story of my hate and anger I have. I want to control my anger but I feel that it has taken control of my emotions and it is the only one feeling I know now.
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replied August 10th, 2010
punching myself
i undrestand what you mean, but i just want to punch my self in the face constanly for no apparent reason and i dont stop until i pyshically cannot lift my arm through pain and exhasution. im 17 and my family think that i have a serious mental health issue but i just cant help it. i've even put my self in hospital with a broken nose and overly swollen eyes and cheeks. i feel worhtless all the time, i feel like i deserve to be punished. what is wrong with me?
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replied August 14th, 2010
I am beyond frustrated and angry. Something has to change and I just don't think I have it in me to try anymore. I am !**@! tired. Daily I lose it and hit myself, pinch myself, clench teeth, you name it to keep from going off. I have tried anything and everything to have a healthy happy adult life and nothing has worked. My job is not stable and I am being micromanaged. My father is nuts and I have to take care of him. My sister is so weird/nuts that anytime anything happens to me whether health or work, etc. - she owns my experience like it is her own. My older brother is psycho and my younger brother just dosen't want to here it. So basically I get to handle the GOD DAM NUTS IN MY FAMILY. NOW I'M TRULEY NUTS. I HAVE FINALLY CRACKED AND I THINK IT IS PERMANENT. I just don't know where to go from here.
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replied October 26th, 2010
Hitting Myself is Ruining Our Marriage
I am ruining my marriage with going crazy. When we fight I end up going so crazy sometimes that I start punching myself in the face and stomach and banging my head into walls and shaking violently and babbling like a possessed person. I feel totally out of control, I lose my mind and it is ruining everything!!! My wife is AMAZING and I love her so much but when we fight and I say hurtful things, I feel like it's all over and my life is in ruins, I panic and feel like the world is crashing down around me...my mind races so fast with such INSANE thoughts and I need to make them stop and the only thing that I can do to make it stop is to hurt myself!!! I feel like I need to punish myself for the things that I said, I feel guilty, I feel like I am not even worth the spit that drools from my cursed mouth. But when this isn't happening I'm the happiest person ever! My wife loves me so much, that's why she puts up with this...I'm currently seeing a therapist but I'm afraid to tell him these things out of fear that he will have me sent to a mental hospital...I don't want to go to the mental hospital!! But I just want to be better!!! If this happens one more time I'm afraid that my wife will leave me, I scare her to death! She says that I am ruining her life, that I'm making her crazy! When I do this I literally make her cry until she vomits, I can't stand seeing her like that! I don't want to do that to her, I NEED HELP!!!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY AM I DOING THIS AND WHY CAN'T I CONTROL MYSELF?????
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replied May 20th, 2012
bipolar
this sounds more like a manic episode.
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replied November 3rd, 2010
I just want to say that since I posted my last message, I went to a psychiatrist and after hearing my problem about hitting myself when I get angry, he put me on a mix of Celexa and Topamax. Since then I haven't even felt like hitting myself EVEN ONCE, not to mention I have felt totally in control of my emotions, and my life feels so much better. This is working for me, thank GOD!!!! So maybe it would work for you guys too!!! I want to be ok and this seems to be working! Meds + therapy = changing the bad in me I don't like.
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replied July 21st, 2011
I had three docters, not psychiatrists, tell me they think I shoudl be on meds. I really don't want to take anything. I am afraid of the the side affects & I want to have children some day. I woudl have to stop taking them to do that. I always feel that my life is not so unmanageable that i need medication. what do you think? When did you make the decision the meds were an option for you?
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replied December 27th, 2010
I know exactly what your talking about and I know how you feel. When I was 17, I had started getting angry over things that wherent worth being angry over. My hitting got so bad that I had cut up fists from punching things like the walls or the computer when it wasnt working for me. After these fits I would be incredibly sad and wish I would die because I felt everyone hated me for being so mad. When I was 19, I was diagnosed with Bipolar (type 1) and Schizophrenia (type 2) I dont know if you'll get the same diagnosis, but when I had read your story it sounded pretty familure to me. I choose not to be on medication anymore because it never helped me in the first place. I have been hospitalized many many times in the past and I have wanted to end my life for 10 years. I know I wont ever, only because my will for it isnt nearly strong enough ( which im very thankful for ) and for me, I knotice that I have my episodes when someone disagrees with me or irritates me. I hope you find this useful towards what your looking for.
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replied December 27th, 2010
Just wanna let everyone know that I haven't hit myself or even wanted to at all since my first post on Oct 26. The meds and therapy have really helped to change my life (and my marriage) around.
And DragonRage, that sounds awful. What is schizophrenia? Obviously I've heard of it but what is it really?
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replied January 6th, 2011
i bite and hit my self when im angry i dont do it till the point of bruises but i do it till i scream in pain is this self harming and if it is how can i tell somone
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replied February 5th, 2011
I hit myself too, my head with my clenched fists and knuckles. I've tried to stop, but sometimes I just can't help it. It's because my boyfriend treats me so badly. He makes me feel like everything I do is so wrong and then leaves me, tells me to not talk to him and he'll call me when he's ready.

I can't help but try to talk to him, I love him. He just gets worst and so rude. I accidently texted him and he was smiling saying I ruined it. Then I beat myself in the tub, for the third day in the row. I'm afraid to get help or tell someone.

My head has been hit so many times, that it doesn't even hurt anymore. It leaves bumps and I have problems sleeping on that side, I feel as if blood is rushing to that position of injury.
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replied February 11th, 2011
Hi
I do this too ... It's like a release valve. You do it to calm down because generally you can't find another way to do this. I am seeking help. Other advice I've seen online has said that stopping completely without having learned another coping mechanism can be dangerous - so be careful.
Just know you aren't alone, it's not an attention thing (as people who don't do this might think) and someone can help you - you just need t. get the courage to ask.
I am going to be learning different ways to channel these feelings and work on low self esteem (which let's face it is a big part - the self hate)
Good luck & take care
L x
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replied March 9th, 2011
What is this
I've been doing this for maybe 3 yrs now. It's not as severe as some of the stories described above, but it still makes me feel kind of ashamed and confused. I don't want to do it, but when an emberassing memory comes to my mind I feel the urge to hit myself, and I cannot not do it, even when I'm around people, and also I make funny faces sometimes, unintentionally, because of the unbearable thoughts I have. I feel that partly this is because secretly I want to seek attention, but on a conscious level I dont want to get it like this, and it makes me again feel very emberassed to think that I'm only making this up... but at the same time I cant stop it... So the whole thing is very confusing and I wonder if anybody has anything like this.
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