Hello, i'm new here and would like some helpful, realistic advice.
I just feel like the world is slowly caving in on me, like everything I've ever wanted is floating away. I pray every night for things that I feel would make me happy and when they don't happen I feel like I'm some sort of demon. It may sound stupid...but its the honest truth. It's not like I don't have friends, a decent place to live in. It's just that my conscious messes with me so much that some days I can barely function and have a normal day. Just a few minutes ago I cried, because I was so angry at how at lot of things I've prayed for are turning against me one way or another. I got to a counselor for my anxiety, but I really don't see her as much as I need to.
And no I am not selfish! I just want to be a happy person, for the first time...it hurts being me. I have no one to talk to about this other than myself.