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Depressed, so much going on, don't know what to do.

I am a 16 year old male currently a sophomore in highschool, and I am quite depressed. There are so many things going on that I have absolutely no control over, and have no idea what to do. To start things off, I am doing terribly in school, failing all of my classes except for 1 or 2, becoming extremely truant, etc. I have also become a little dependent on some drugs, and I waste a lot of my money on that, and my family does not have much money to spare. Also, recently, about a week ago, my father could not pay the bill for light I guess, I don't know much about bills, but that whole week we had no light and no electricity, and were living in dark, with nothing but candles to see. This depressed me a lot, as I just felt so poor and worthless that we had to live off of candles for an entire week. Now two weeks after that, my father loses his job. He was the only person in our family of five making any money, and now he has no job. This just kills me as now there is no money coming in, and I just have this strong, depressing feeling that we are going to be homeless in a matter of time, out on the street with nothing, or alternatives such as moving, which I just do not want to do because I have made so many friends where I live, and I have grown so accustomed to everyone here, and I love them all, I can't just pick up and leave. One of the most depressing aspects of my life is that I live in a home where everyone hates me. My family would definitely be better off without me. I have caused nothing but trouble for the past two years, being arrested, caught with drugs, stealing, etc. My parents are sick of it and are done with me. My mother is no longer talking to me, it has been like this for about a week and a half now. My father is on my case for not being religious, and both my parents beat me, leaving bruises, and marks on me. I can't live with this anymore. I also worry about my future so much. With how I am doing right now, no colleges will accept me, I will never get a scholarship, which I need greatly as there is barely any money in this family. If I can't go to college I don't know how I am going to end up when I am grown. I don't want to be a drug addict in the streets just begging for money, but the way things are going right now, that's how it seems it's going to be. All of this just depresses me so much. I can't sleep at night because all these thoughts just cloud my mind and prevent me from falling asleep. I am up so late with all of these thoughts. Some days I might steal sleep medication from a store, but other than that it is very hard to sleep. I am depressed and don't know what to do. I am completely lost.
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