Ok, I am going to go out on a limb and share an email to her that I have prepared but have not sent as I do not know if it is too much... Any suggestions would be appreciated as I am willing to go through this..I have known her since we we 18 and were together for four years until the break up late Feb. 2014.Here is the email..I was really hoping I could speak with you about this rather than over an email. As I told you in the last email, I have been doing a lot of reading lately regarding bipolar and relationships. I read a lot of the same things from those in relationships with someone who is bipolar. The reason given and the Breakups are 95% the exact same. It is out of the blue, it is me, not you, and I love you but not in love with you. I have finally been validated in the sense that I am not crazy for thinking we still have a shot. All these other stories of the exact same thing cannot be coincidence. I cannot begin to grasp what it is like or how it makes you feel, however, together, I do believe we can get through this. There are many people out there who are living proof of that who are having successful relationships. I knew what I signed up for when we got together. You were very forthcoming about the rhematoid/fibro, about how you cycle and ur need for space, how you feel chaotic at times, how the house becomes extremely unkempt during this time. You told me about all of this and I CHOSE to stay with you. I STILL CHOOSE YOU!
I don't know how else to tell you that I will support you through all of this. No, I have not spoken with anyone about this, nor will I. I do not believe that your friends no exactly what is going on, except for maybe a select few. As far as the rest are concerned... It's just you, you kinda come and go with them too, but you have trusted me enough to share all the stuff and warn me about it because you CHOSE me as well. I know we will get through this and get back to a better place than where we were. I can handle a lot and yes, you can lay your world on me. I will step back and give you the space you need to do what you need to do to get better. I only ask you one thing, please, if there is someone else or if u become more than platonic with someone, I need to know because that I do not think I can handle as you found out the other day when I asked if there was someone else you are seeing. I am well aware that when someone who is bipolar begins the cycle of that high, the sexual piece becomes very heightened. For example, when you told me you had not been with a woman for a very long time and the last few people you were with were guys. When I asked why, your response was guys are easy and I was horny. I have read that story as well amongst the forums. It is all beginning to make sense.
After all of this information I have known and have begun to learn and realize, I am still choosing you. I love you and you are worth it. I know it will always be Complicated and it will not always be easy. Someone told me, very close to you, that in all the years they have known you, they had never seen you as happy as you were when we reconnected. I am here, I am not going anywhere.
All my love,