In May I started talking to this guy, after a week and a half we started having sex. I really liked him. The next week I got pregnant. When we first started talking he said he was divorced, when I told him I was pregnant and asked him if he was married he finally told me that he is for now. They were supposedly seperated. After 2 or 3 months of feeling like I was being lied to I finally decide to find out for myself. He doesn't have one daughter, he has two, and his wife is 6 or 7 months pregnant. All this I found out for myself. I found his home phone number and called his wife. I told her everything, thinking she needed to know. She told me I could shove it up my whatever, so after that I figured it's on her now.

Most days I just cry out of fustration and not knowing. I start thinking about how he is not going to be there for this baby like he is for his other children. It hurts to think about everything he is going to miss out on. And it hurts even more when I think about the things the baby is going to miss out on because his father won't be around. At night I wake up in sweats terried that I won't be able to be everything this baby needs. That I won't be able to give this baby everything he deserves. A week after I told my boss I was pregnant, I was fired. How does everyone get through the uncertainty, the lonely feeling?