I don't know what I am feeling but suddenly I fell anxious, pessimistic, and stress up over my future. It seems that everything I am trying to do doesn't work out, I feel that I am not even able to make a right choice for future, I don't know which major I have to do, and what career I have to follow, all my friends are quite decisive about what they wan to do, they make great plans for their future, but what I feel is like I am far behind them, I am now drinking alcohol just to make me forget all those stuff, I sometimes daydream about a wonderful future, wonderful wife and wonderful children but in fact I don't even have a girl friend I am just going through one night stand, and I don't really like it. I am living really far from my family, and been living for almost 2 years and I am just 20 years old. Please help me, I know my life sounds really great in my brain, but what I want now, is the true picture of my life, real facts, right choices, what major should I chose. And you know, I am graduated from high school in Biochemistry, and actually it wasn't a really good choice, because I wasn't good neither in Biology nor Chemistry, in fact I wasn't good in all my courses: Mathematic, physics, chemistry, geometry...am I gonna have a good future???, how my life will turn out?? But I am quite good in languages, I can speak three different languages(french natively, english, and chinese), but these stupid languages don't really help me being a special person. Please Help me! I really need your help!
mate major in life! just go get it don't be worried about the future because the future is not here yet. Jesus said something like " let not your heart be troubled" & "even the hairs of your head are numbered , even the birds & flowers do not worry so should he not care more for you then they"
Sounds like you miss the family maybe you can go spend some time with them or is that not possible?! do they have access to email?
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