I don't know whats going on with me, but I'm showing every symptom of a withdrawal from cocaine.
Now, I didn't believe it was possible to have withdrawals without being an addict.
I rarely use coke. I used to use it a lot in my past when I had just turned 16 and everything, but eventually got off of it. I have used it last November once(one line) and once last weekend(a couple of lines) and once the weekend before(one line). I don't do it much. I can easily control things.
Throughout the past 3 weeks or so, I've been falling into a depression. This is very rare for me. I'm always a bubbly happy person.
Within these past two weeks of using it, I've had a lot of pain in my nose and throat (which the reason is obvious), so I decided to stop (which has always been easy.)
Within the past week, everything has gotten worse. I find myself isolated a lot(thought I'm not meaning to), depressed, lonely, anxious, I rarely have cravings, but in this past week I have had extreme cravings to use a needle to shoot it up (I usually only snort it), I've found myself feeling suicidal when I'm alone, I have a lot of discomfort in my stomach, I believe I am developing an eating disorder...
Nothing has changed in this past week with my use except for me telling myself that I'm going to stop. I don't usually use it during the week and I'm continueing not to use it during the week.
I don't exactly know what is going on, but it seems like a withdrawal. Is that possible? Or is it just depression just creeping up on me and I'm trying to cope with using more drugs?
This may not have anything to do with withdrawl. You just may be suffering from plain ole depression. Then again you still indeed may be going through withdrawl. the symtoms sure sound like it. Could be a mixture of a little of both. Going from happy (from drugs) to going clean is a big transition and it could easily create a depressive state. You should now try to dicontinue use altogether. Heck you over half way there already.
I was figuring it was plain old depression since I was diagnosed 4 years ago. I haven't taken my meds for it in about 2 and a half years, though because I was always so happy and I loved life.