I have had a lazy eye since I can remember. I don't know if I was born with it, or if it developed later in life.

Here are how my eyes work

I can control both eyes and make them appear as they are working together. This causes some pain and sever blurring. I am trying to concentrate now and I am having a hard time seeing to type this. If I am not focusing I can see just fine.

I have read allot of posts about people who couldn't play sports with smaller balls such as baseball, but I only had this problem hitting. I can throw accurate, shoot accurate, catch with no problem.

My vision is my right eye is 20:40 and my left is 20:140 and together I can't hardly see.

I am 29 years old, and would like to for once in my life to look normal and not have people look at me like I am a freak of nature. I have never dated, and am afraid to ask women out. I don't feel worthy. (yes, I know that if they feel differently about me that is their problem) (but this doesn't help me)

Please, any advise you are willing to share, would be great. I do not have medical insurance so I am going to have to pay out of pocket when and if I ever go.

Given the fact that I can control my eye, does this make the chances of a successful surgery anymore likely.