I feel like cutting right now so bad. I'm scared and i just want to hurt so I can forget everything else in the world. I have depression and A.D.D. I'm starting to believe it's more than that now. Pain is what I want. but I can't hide it forever... I have cut for years. I have attempted suicide 4 times. Fortunately Hospitalization was not needed... Suicide sounds so easy right now. but my life has always been about challenges and helping people like me. unfortunately, I can't stop... I don't want to and now I literally hear voices talking to me. I just want it to end. After being beat for years, pain seems like the easiest pain reliever... for physical and emotional pain.
Please, don't hurt yourself. Easier said than done, I know. I was self-injuring for 13 years of my life, until I finally quit cold-turkey. It IS possible. Have you heard of the 15 minute rule? If not, PM me and I will type it up for you. Its VERY helpful.
Please check out this blog I typed up almost 2 years ago regarding self injury, it may help you find a way to express your own feelings
I hope these resources help you. And again, please don't hurt yourself. In the end, these scars that remain on my arm are NOT worth it. Losing your life? Not an option. Stick around...there are so many amazing things to look forward to! But...you wont know what they are unless you stick around to find out.
Be safe and be well!
Sounds like you need professional help and maybe hospitalization this time. If you are hearing voices, telling you to harm yourself, you should seek medical attention immediately. If you are in eminent danger, go to the emergency room.