I cry all the time and I feel like I'm such a failure. Like no one would care if I just died or left their life. Im always messing up everything good I have going in my life. I know I don't love myself and I don't even take care of myself most of the time. I wish I could have the happiness and friendships I see so many people around me have. I have felt this way for almost 10 years, I always thought I would just "get happy" one day, but I'm almost 28 and I feel like I'm going to be sad for the rest of my life. I feel like everything is just gonna pass me by because I was just sad all the time.
My question is, where can I get help? People tell me I need help, but I have no idea where to start. I don't have a primary doctor that I'm comfortable with or feel like I can talk to. Do I need to go straight to a psychiatrist? Thanks for reading.
I find it horrible that this has had thirty views and yet I am the first willing to help you. I like to call Kids Help Phone, (I am 15) it's someone to talk to, they often can give you advice and suggestions.