Well here it go's, I’ll try to keep this short. Today I and my girl friend(i think, or ex) got into a huge fight....and I ended up finding something out that I really didn’t want to hear. Yesterday myself, my g/f and her younger brother(14) went to an event, witch she ended up ditching us to go to hang out with here male friends/co workers. I was very disgruntled about this, but it happened anyways.

Some additional information, when we first started dating, things were rough...she cheated on me....Sense then if have forgiven, but I have not forgotten. This has made me very paranoid, drives me crazy. and it scares me to loose her still...5 years later.(am I wrong for this?)

Moving on...She goes on with her friends and tells me she'll call me when she’s ready to get picked up....fine ..I guess....hours later myself and her brother return home at 12:30 a.m. .....I have yet to receive a call, so I stay up and waited and waited. 3a.m. comes by im freaking out because she hasn’t called yet and my minds racing with thoughts....I thought she might of ended up staying the night over there...witch I wasn’t happy with. I decided to try to sleep but I couldn’t because I was a nervous wreck.

9:00 a.m. comes around, her brother and I were freaking out at this time. At 10 I finally get a call( at this time im going crazy thinking what could of happened, and im ferrous for her not calling)……So I find out after the concert they decided to go back and through a party…witch was her excuse for not calling…after that I wanted to pick her up but she told me not to because I would of made a seen…..witch made me even more mad. She said she would get a ride.

At this time I took the brother home because I new it was going to get ugly(verbal fight), and because it wasn’t fare to him to have to sit there stuck in the middle of it. I returned home and crap hit the fan…I really went all out about her not calling to at least let me know what was going on. I believe it was very wrong….Things snow ball…I eventually find out that she’s had feelings for one of the guys for the past half year and is really no longer happy with me……

So yeah…..here I am at 22 stuck in a huge bind….We recently bought a house together almost a year ago…..I still love her to death, I wanted to marry her next year… its only 11 in the morning, I haven’t gotten any sleep in over 24 hours, ive picked up smoking again, and im drinking sitting here all alone.

I’m scared and I don’t know what to do.... I feel like i am empty now