My husband and I have been married for 11 months and now we are having a baby. This is the first marriage for both of us. When we first fell in love it was magic and the magic is still there and it keeps getting better. He is the best, he has all of my trust and confidence that he'll be a great father and life partner, but I go through these periods of days when I feel like I hate him. I feel like I am sick inside and I even consider suicide sometimes. I sometimes even tell him that I hate him and I wish we never got mariied, I don't know where these thoughts come from or why I suddenly start to swing my moods so dramatically. I wiah every moment could be like the blissful moments we have. He has a 5 1/2 year old son to an ex girlfriend and I get jealous sometimes that he already has a child and I tell him that he doesn't care about me and our baby and that we're not special to him. I bring up things from years ago that don't matter anymore and that we have tols eachother we have forgiven but I still have this heaviness in my heart. I don't know why I can't control my emotions and I don't know why I say these things to him that I know deep down are not true. Is there anyone out there that can relate to me? Is there someone I can confide in?