Seeing I am completely honest here, I want to add to my last post...What happened when I asked my husband to do what I did, happened...However, the Forum I speak about was my OWN blog site...This is put up by me, paid for by me and always will be a part of me...To help explain this, when I ejaculated in Orlando, near five years ago, something happened to me....The waters of love that I emmitted from my husband making love to me, were like the "fountain of youth"...They still are...There is so much to know about an aging woman when she truly finds herself...This is especially true if she is in love with a man as much as I am with my husband...I truly think that many of us hide the better part of ourselves during sexual mating...I let go...Someday I will speak of this...
Besides trying to find out what happened to me, I needed to talk...I needed to talk to someone who could tell me what was happening to me...This is when I found Forums...You see I was the most sexually stupid person in the world before this happened....I had never really masturbated, never looked at Porn with the exception of maybe two times at a motel with my husband on trips..One movie was Tommy Lee and Pam Anderson's honeymoon film...That was hot...Never knew of sex books, and the most important fact, never used a vibrator nor known of them in my life...What I speak about is not even five years ago...I truly believe I was born on the far side of the moon and finally found my way out....But, we were happy....I guess what I didn't know didn't hurt me...But it did sexually....Once I found the keys to the kingdom, it was hot....And I have never stopped.....
Saying this, I had to talk to someone...It was too much for me...My mind had a hard time absorbing this new sexual creature that I had become...So I did...It took me three therapists to find the one that I finally settled on....I adore her...Lee has her name...I have talked to her for three years and only recently have I stopped speaking with her....I love her, but it got to the point where my knowledge on life was pretty much equal to her's in the places of my life where I needed it...But she is and will always be there for me.....As I am for her...
At first I wrote of our love....I had to...I wrote it on Forums that I had found...This was all new to me and like Christopher Columbus discovering America...But, I would get in trouble...I was a woman in love and sometimes I encountered people who couldn't believe that a woman my age could be a woman my age...Saying this, Patti, my therapist, suggested that I start my own blog site....Just me...Allow no visitors...Be a me, thing...This way when I felt like speaking of my love for my husband or speaking of some hot erotic pleasure that he had just done for me, that I could write of it....So I did this...This is my site and my site only....It will be three years old this coming April....Unfortunately, I don't write as much as I used to, but I still write...I find now that if I find a site where I think I can help that this is where I like to speak of life....My site is bolder and all of me....This site is a more reserved side of me and meets all the censors as I should be....I am here because I love it here.....I have one purpose in life and that is to help women and this is pretty much the end of this story....However, when I wrote that I put on a Forum of my husband eating me again, it was at my site and not a Forum...The woman who wrote me did this through my site and I still have the email...I have many emails from people that I have helped....These are my Academy Awards of life....and I do treasure them..
I did want to clear this up as I was not being entirely truthful and unless I am this, I am not me...
Take care,
Caroline