I dont feel I have a mental problem. Im 30 and I have scleroderma. I have lost seven children in one way or another over the years. My mother died when I was 14 years old and I went from living as a black child in a all white neighborhood to living in a all black enviorment. I feel cheated and very sad. Im scared I wont have a roof over my head or food in my mouth. I dont trust anybody and cut people out of my life daily. I feel that my life is a dream and it isnt a good one. I have had very good times also but the bad out weighs the good. Not even a year ago I gave birth to a stillborn. I need answers on why am I here. Sometimes I feel like the movie when jesus was being wipped. I litterly feel the skin slicing on my back when something new happens. I feel I wont be here long. But what am I here for in the first place is the question?
I certainly can't answer all your questions here. You may not have a mental health condition that can be diagnosed, but your situation still demands analysis. You may not be able to change the events in your life or the circumstances, but you can certainly do something to change the way you perceive them. In other words, you can choose how you want your world to be for you. I suppose a trained therapist can help you with that.
Hope this helps. Take care.
Abhijeet Deshmukh, MD
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