what a life

nearly 60 years old and what a life, it never gets better, from a child when i lost my mother at 9 my lfe has been hell, my marriage ended after 21 years, i married at 16 thinking i would find happiness, but that wasnt to be. i found love with a married man who in the end made me realise that he never wanted me, and would never leave his wife, so another 20 years wasted. my brother then commited suicide, and my life was turned upside down, now i am full of arthritis, alone, and wonder why i carry on, i had to leave my job, and live off what i have, no future, no life, and alone.