went to the toilet last night and there was lots of blood

Long story but it needs to be delt with some how i have a bad anxiety disorder and i suffer from other mental conditions but whats happing to me its unbelievable i feel like a myth i dont feel real i feel basically dead i am suffering physical pains meening muscale twitchis heart hurs constanyly my head is numb and kills and my eyes are blurey my skin is burning up and there is many more but i am suisidal my story is about i went to the toilet last night and there was lots of blood when i had finished in the toilet and i panicked like mad and rang the doctor late last night went to see him and he sed stuff like this happens regually ect so i got on with the night i went agin this morning and prayed to god it would go but there was blood again and like a lot and the blood looks fresh like but now with this on my mind as much as everything elts i am going through as just broken me in 2 ! i am only 22 and i feel so numb dumb and lost ... what could this be ? i am afrade to go again this is serious stuff like this dont just happen randomly shorly ! and i nearly passed out earlya from dizziness due to i dont no probeberly on mind with my mind games IE constanly wondering y my heart is hurting i feel not real i feel dizzy ect now this is acually something real knowing i have seen 3 lots of blood when been to the toilet i feel physically ill in general i need to go and see my personal doctor but i have been 100 time in the past through anxiety its self and now what will they do i need to no y this has happend i am now thinking i am going to die expecting the worse. well dispite that i feel susisidal i can not live any longer like this with all the other symtoms i can not make a desision for my self i feel like iv lost my mind ... but with the blood thing is this normal in life to exprerinse !? i just con not cope at all i need a test doing asap i am sick of being messed about and random docs saying diffrent things its a joke what can i do what will and how will they test me for some thing serious i am so stressed out its unreal please reply asap please