Hello everyone, I am a new member of this website and I would first of all like to say what an awesome website this is, very useful information on a broad amount of topics.

I have a very huge dilemma that has been on my mind for quite a while now and I just can't solve this problem by myself. Here's a little background information about me and also my problem:

I am a 21 year old male, 5'5, and weigh 198 lbs (currently). Back about in July 08' I completely changed my life around. Well, let me tell you that before July I used to be fat all my life, 5'5 and 270 lbs, I was pretty much a basketball, short and round. It took me so many years to realize what I was getting myself into, health wise. But as July came, I started hitting the gym, eating right, and actually only smoking Marijuana about every 4 months or so. So as the months passed, and January came, I was at about 200 - 210 lbs and my body structure completely changed. I began to have a social life again, parties, girls, you name it. I also started smoking more and more often. About a month later I fell into hardcore depression because of school, and some family issues. I would get high everyday for like a month straight and would eat bad food almost everyday. This caused me to gain about 15 lbs so I was at about 217 lbs. I couldn't stand it and dropped the weed and hit the gym because of straight up fear, I never want to be the old me again, ever in my life and I will do whatever it takes not to get there, even if it meant killin' the weed. So it's currently May 2009 and I've never felt better in my life before. I am currently hitting the gym again and I'm at 198 lbs. But my problem is this: I still love to smoke out of my bong, you know just a bowl pack a day or every other day. I would love to enjoy both of them. As of right now I am eating very healthy ( 5 - 6 x a day, portion meals filled with the right amounts of carbs, proteins, and fats), and I am exercising 6 x a week ( 3 x strength train, 3 x cardio). And by the way, when I smoke up, I never get the munchies, if I feel hungry, I just eat an apple or a carrot so I know that I don't feel bad about that because now I'm not eating bad food. Can I still manage to lose weight and still enjoy the one thing that keeps making me feel good and giving me hope?

Any advice would be appreciated because I am really lost and at a dead end on this one.