I totally feel your pain, now that I am 44 and my husband and I have suffered two miscarriages, our hopes are fading so quickly for a child, we too, have so much to offer a child, we have gone thru the whole adoption process in Alberta and are still waiting to hear from our caseworker, its been so long and so hard, my hubby has a great job that is secure and we have a big home and I stay at home so we have all the time and love to give a child yet its getting more and more depressing and sad, we had thought we had one baby girl once for a long time we were sure the birth mother would let us raise her but she then decided to keep her child,which is her right, but it broke our hearts so badly. I just want a child so much too, I am hurting too so much so I feel your pain thru your words too, I am so sorry, I hope things work out for you someday soon as well as for me and my husband too, there has to be a child out there for both of us I just know it, hang in there, I am here whenever you would like to talk, no problem, I know how hard it is and how sad it can be.