I know how you feel. If i eat i feel disgusted with myself. as you read in my post, i feel like i have let down my friend and sister (RIP)
You should be happy with urself and try and maintain a steady weight and then you will learn to live with it .x.

I sympathize with you and know how you feel from personal experience too. But sometimes you just gotta try and forget about that by focusing on other things. I'm 5'7 and currently weight 150lb and i too miss my skinny body sometimes. But then i think about how people tell me i look much better and healthier now than i did before and it makes me feel better about myself thanks to my family and friends. Yes, there are times when i just wanna stop eating again because i know the euphoric feeling you get from losing weight, so what helps me take my mind off it is keeping my mind busy on other things and wanting to be healthy =]
Well hope my advice helped at least a little

Hello,
I'm sorry that you went through anorexia, it's not easy..I know. Right now it sounds like you are still kind of going through it but not as bad. I think that being 5'8 and only 105 is way too skinny. To answer your question..are people going to judge you? People always judge people, it's a thing that everyone does no matter what because we're all human. You have to learn not to take into consideration the bad stuff that people say about you because they are only trying to hurt you but if you show them that they aren't doing anything they won't do it. If you want to lose a few pounds or whatever in the "healthy way" then why not talk to one of your parents/guardian about going to see a dietitian or a nutritionist? I think that would be your best bet and exercising. Those are the healthy ways to do it..by not eating or throwing up you are just going to put the weight back on when you do eat..twice as much as you would..so I really suggest eating at least something. I have gone through the whole anorexia thing and it was really a hard thing to get out of and still to this day I go through spurts where I get so depressed and angry with myself and the way that I look that I want to be really skinny with an awesome body and no fat but if people really love you like your family and your friends they don't care how much you weigh..it's on the inside. No matter what you look like, if someone cares about you they won't care about your weight. You seem perfectly fine to me at the weight you are at. I am about 5'6 and I'm 130 pounds and I want to lose about 10 pounds but it's the hardest thing ever so I know how you are feeling. Just try exercising a little more or if you do already just eating healthier..Oh and to answer your question..you want it so bad because we are all pressured by magazines and celebrities to be stick skinny and that if we aren't we are weird and fat..and not normal but it's not true. They don't really look like that..many hours and hard work with photoshop..if we did that, we could look that way too. Also, those celebrities don't always look the best either. I think a lot of times, just girls on the street look better than them. So don't worry about it. Live life, don't worry about what other people think of you.

Let me know how it goes.

Good luck and let me know how it goes!

I'm 5'6 and I typically weight 140. I look great like that. 120 would be too skinny. I'm 146 now since I'm pregnant and looking forward to see my belly getting bigger . You don't need to loose 10 pounds at 130.

It hard going thru school with an ED. Concentrate on that rather than your weight. You never gained weight you just became more healthy. You need to think more positive. Rrather than feeling fat you feel curvy and healthy. Rememebr that your body was created especially for you and how ever hard you try to change it; it will never be good enough to you. Instead, enjoy it =]
good luck xxxxxxxxxxx