Waking up every morning, not wanting to leave.

I dont want to leave my apartment because I hate people. The stupidity of the human race depresses me more than life. And my life is pretty horrible. I've never known my father, my uncle raped me as a child, my mother is a raging alcoholic, the only girl I loved cheated on me in my bed with my former friend, I was raised around drugs and obviously alcohol. I made it through high school to find that life after high school was more depressing than mindlessly sitting in a classroom taking notes about things that I don't care about and will never think of again. I want to start making music but don't have nearly enough money to make it, thought about college but 1. Don't have enough money and 2. Don't want to do the whole school thing. I have no friends and no clue what to do with myself. So I sit around everyday, smoking my marijuana because it's the only thing that keeps me from going on a rampage in a walmart.the government disgusts me, this country of USA disgusts me, we should all be ashamed of the god complex we have locked in our brain because this country is slowly falling apart. Freedom is oppression. I hate the gods I don't believe in, I hate the silence that i sit in, I hate the people who are greedy, I hate anyone who thinks they can help me. I'm not going to kill myself because then I would miss my chance to maybe one day watch the world kill itself. I don't want any of your help, and none of you could if you tried. But go ahead and comment if you do so feel inclined.