Waited too long to tell her how I felt

Hi everyone, just thought I'd get this out because lately I've been feeling so low and depressed because of what happened between a friend and I. I met a girl in March. We completely connected with each other the first time we met. She was everything I looked for in someone. I thought about her everyday. I liked her from the moment I first saw her, but I didn't want to rush into anything. We we're always just so happy when hanging out and being together. I'm even teaching her how to play the guitar every once in a while because shes always wanted to learn. She really makes me smile because no one has ever made me feel like she does. I'm 23 yrs old and never had a girlfriend. I didn't know how to express my feelings for her because everything was just so new to me. About a month ago (June), I told her how I felt and asked her if she felt the same. Unfortunately, she told me that she did, but it was when we first met. She said she thought I didn't have the same feelings at the time, and her feelings went away. I never held her hand when I wanted to, never hugged her like I wanted to, never told her what I wanted to, never took that leap of faith like I needed to. My fears drew her away from me. I had all the chances. They were all in front of me. I just didn't do it. Its been so hard to deal with what I've been going through. Never knowing. Thinking about what could have been if I had just told her everything earlier on.

It hurts to know that the I had a chance, especially with the person I fell in love with the first time. I've come to the realization that I am depressed because of this. Mainly because I'm such a loner. I have friends but none that I could hang out or talk to anytime. I don't go out that often either. I'm always home during my free time. Pretty much my social life is a zero. I'm not the clubbing or partying type of person. I'm very laid back and I'd rather take a stroll in the park on a Friday night rather than get mindlessly wasted. I just don't know what to do right now. I know I have to move on, hold my chin up, and stand tall...it's just so difficult. If you read this far, thank you! I appreciate your time!