Hi everyone, just thought I'd get this out because lately I've been feeling so low and depressed because of what happened between a friend and I. I met a girl in March. We completely connected with each other the first time we met. She was everything I looked for in someone. I thought about her everyday. I liked her from the moment I first saw her, but I didn't want to rush into anything. We we're always just so happy when hanging out and being together. I'm even teaching her how to play the guitar every once in a while because shes always wanted to learn. She really makes me smile because no one has ever made me feel like she does. I'm 23 yrs old and never had a girlfriend. I didn't know how to express my feelings for her because everything was just so new to me. About a month ago (June), I told her how I felt and asked her if she felt the same. Unfortunately, she told me that she did, but it was when we first met. She said she thought I didn't have the same feelings at the time, and her feelings went away. I never held her hand when I wanted to, never hugged her like I wanted to, never told her what I wanted to, never took that leap of faith like I needed to. My fears drew her away from me. I had all the chances. They were all in front of me. I just didn't do it. Its been so hard to deal with what I've been going through. Never knowing. Thinking about what could have been if I had just told her everything earlier on.
It hurts to know that the I had a chance, especially with the person I fell in love with the first time. I've come to the realization that I am depressed because of this. Mainly because I'm such a loner. I have friends but none that I could hang out or talk to anytime. I don't go out that often either. I'm always home during my free time. Pretty much my social life is a zero. I'm not the clubbing or partying type of person. I'm very laid back and I'd rather take a stroll in the park on a Friday night rather than get mindlessly wasted. I just don't know what to do right now. I know I have to move on, hold my chin up, and stand tall...it's just so difficult. If you read this far, thank you! I appreciate your time!
The thing is there are so many women out there, don't get caught up on just one. Join a club or meet some girls through an online site. Don't let one girl bring you down bro, life is too short to worry about how she feels and don't let yourself become emotionally drained. Trust me I know first hand that its not worth the time wasted. You could be out enjoying your life. I'm sure she is having a blast, the thing is girls dont tend to care as much and the best thing you can do is move on with your life, take some chances there are tons of women out there. Some relationships just don't work out. although this is all easier said than done have faith my man! Good things will come your way, opportunity strikes everyday ! Keep your head up, don't let a girl bring you down