voices of my idol - self harming is gradually getting worse?

I have to know. Who is your idol?

my idol is johnny depp

I don't know what to say... it almost reminded me of me...

you had the same sort of experiences? its really frightening when its someone you love like your idol. im not sure when i should stop listening to him as i find it hard to reject him

Yeah, it's really hard...

i need help in knowing what to do next. i really am frightened! i hate going through each day feeling empty. does anyone know what i should do?

Well, I know one thing that you should do, it probably wont make your voices stop or anything, but it is one thing that none of us should ever do.

And that would be idolizing, or respecting lowly things for lowly reasons.

You only imagine it to be glittery, glittering like gold, but it's a mirage, you should realize this.

I have one way to get started, imagine old johnny having a few drinks and then taking a huge drunken poo! See him and yourself(and me for that matter) for what we truly are.

There is only one way to not feel empty, love, and the truths that come from love, although this is dangerous.

Thank you for such inspiring advice. I do admitt however that i do not see Johnny for the glittering Hollywood image because i see through all of that box of lies and like his true personality. his dedication to his family is priceless and i simply adore reading biographies about him and his life. this is the reason i take therapy. i believe the voice is something i created because i am lonely yet i wonder how something i could love like an idol would be threatening also.

His true personality is dark actually, like the rest of us.

People who I call lucky always seem to be dedicated to family, the easier things are the more dedicated you seem to others.

He doesn't have a life, none of us do.

See it all for what it really is.

Everyone is everyone, at the core of it anyway, only in different situations.

I am going in for another therapy session thursday. i will tell her what has been suggested and thank you for the advice. much appreciated friend

my first manic attack ...this voices are the voice of my friends, close relatives and boss.. they want me to commit suicide and murder. weird i'm have very controlled personality but for no reason i attempt to do their evil commands and i become destructive , i lost interest of living and it slowly kills me.
then weeks or months later they turn out to be the voices of somewhat popular actors, politician and the unknown people telling familiar names and commanding me to commit crazy things until these days the unknown voices are still doing it. well i don't really care of it that much anymore since i realized that i waste a year of my life following their stupid commands and it destroy me and my relationship to my family.
then later on the national and local television/radio network in my country begins torture me by poisoning the minds of the people in my community and turns it against me.
i can't fight these people, they can see the future and know my past they always using it against me. they are like the FALSE prophets in the bible using their special knowledge and a piece of future telling ability to corrupt me and people surrounds me to commit inhumane things. well, i saw this creature one night maybe a part of my visual hallucination they are like fish but they crawls like comodo dragon in his human body like physic with a very long human tongue and the creature is on the ceiling and one more crazy thing they have many followers ... crazy right?