So I really just had to post it here. I don't know anywhere else to go where people will understand me.


I'm from a country where abortion is still illegal and still very much taboo. People here get condemned for doing it. Despite all these I chose to have a medical abortion for the same reason as most here who's done it before and 'planning to do it. We are stil very much incapable of supporting ourselves more so a kid. Life in a country like ours is very difficult

We still depend mostly on our parents. My boyfriend still has alot of responsibilities being the bread winner in his family and he cannot afford to have his own family , not right now.

What's difficult about it is that believe it or not we have not done it all the way.We were trying , but failed, to be careful so things could go as planned. I don't know how to put it but there was no penetration that happened.

I got scared when I read a few medical articles online saying that women can get pregnant even without penetration , if the guy releases the sperm near or on the opening some could actually get in.

After 3 days of missing my period I got scared did a PT and could not belive the result , we bought another , this time from a different brand, still the same result.

I got pregnant, without the penetration and believe it or not technically or whatever Im still a virgin. Virgin in a sense that I have not had anything or anyone's whatever inside me .(I know people call girls like me pseudo virgins but I haven't really done the entire thing yet, Im 24 years old, no kidding)

I almost cried when I had my transvaginal ultrasound , even that little thing felt painful.But there was nothing I can do, we wanted to be sure. So there we saw the fertilized cell, no embryo/fetus visible yet because it was only 4 weeks 6 days old.

Desperate we bought cytotec from a person who posted her number online.
I got 12 (200mg) tabs without mifs.

For the first dosage i took 2 pills bucally and 2 inserted inside the vagina ( even that was painful) I felt so cold and had a fever started having cramps

after 3 hours,2nd dosage 4 tablets bucally, after an hour I started the first heavy bleeding.


3rd dosage after 3 hours, 4 tablets bucally, after an hour I had the 2nd heavy bleeding. I felt like my uterus was throwing up.


I felt so horrible and guilty, but at the same time a little relieved. Im on my 2nd day now, still bleeding, just regular bleeding as if im having my period with just abit of the cramping.

Next week my bf would take me to an OB to have my ultrasound to check on my uterus. Im hoping it worked and everything's been completely removed, if not I would have to go through surgical abortion or what they do to clean up the uterus.

I heard the apparatus they use to open up the cervix could be quite painful, I dont know if I could take that ='( if the pill and the transvaginal ultrasound hurt I dont know if I could take that one too.

This is the biggest mistake of my life and I feel so horrible about everything. I should have just waited for us to be ready even before doing anything close to really doing it, I should have used protection. I din't know it could happen.

If you don't want to believe me its okay, I just wanted to tell you guys so others can be careful. It could happen. ='( It happened to me.