Hello,

Recently, I've been seeing a boy named Jason. He's 19, I'm 23. We started talking about a year ago, met up a couple times, then just sort of stopped talking. Those were rough times, and as the saying goes, you have to love others before you can love yourself, and I certainly didn't love myself. But recently we started talking and hanging out again, and we really hit it off.

It was all very strange to me. The fact that someone whom I liked actually liked me and found me attractive in return is very rare. My friends said they have seen a huge shift in my personality. I say things, mushy, romantic things that I would never say before. I even wrote him a two page poem that I worked on for days.

We hung out again the other day, had a picnic, went to a movie, and had an overall great day. We actually held hands and kissed in public, which is something I never would have done had it not felt right. Later that evening we messed around, and afterwards, I felt a huge shift in my feelings towards the whole situation.

There are times when I'm so lonely, all I want is someone to be with. But now that I've gotten close to Jason, the idea of a relationship just sounds... I don't know. Not like something I'd want to do. I don't understand why I feel this way. I had never been more sure of anything before in my life.

I brought this up to him yesterday and he was understandably upset. He's such a sweet, cute, caring person. The last thing I want to do is hurt him, or make him feel used, but I really don't know what to do. Is it some irrational fear of commitment? Or did we just move too fast? Do we continue seeing each other, even though it may not lead anywhere? Or are some people just not cut out for relationships?