Im 17 and i feel like i might be getting some kind of eating disorder..
for months i have been restricting my calories,and ive lost a bunch of weight,well thats what everyone says..i have no idea how much i weigh
i usually try to eat only like 500 calories a day
but sometimes i eat less then 500 calories
im so obsessed with counting calories..
and im also very obsessed with what i eat,the only things i dont feel guilty eating are like fruits/vegetables..
or stuff i know is healthy and very low in calories
i feel guilty if i eat anything else..
id feel guilty if i even ate a slice of bread because i hear all about how bread is bad and is full of carbs or something..
i never throw up or go without eating(wlell i did for a few days before i started restricting calories like this)
i feel like i could never do those things,
but..i still feel like im just getting too obsessed with counting calories and obviously im not eating enough calories
i feel like if i can just get to like 120-30 lbs then it will all stop and ill be fine
or if i could run on a treadmill everyday,then i could maybe allow myself to eat more,i dont like running around in public..i wish i could join a gym or something,i would workout everyday and burn every calorie..
but since i cant,i wont let myself eat any more then 500 calories
even eating 500 calories sometimes makes me feel like crap!
i just feel like something is seriously wrong with my mind,
like i feel like nobody would ever like me because im chubby/overweight..
i havent even weighed myself since i started this,so i dont even know how much weight ive lost,i started in december or something
today i only ate around 200-230 calories because there was nothing healthy in the house because we needed to go shopping
i want to be healthy and eat healthy and exercise!
sorry this is long and weird im kind of having troubles explaining myself
Hi thot i would reply to this as im in the same sort of situation! but its been a year now for me and im just addicted to having control and obsessing over food and my weight its just habit now and i dont know how to fix it i know myself its not normal but its just became my life now and i think back to when i was normal and think to myself why cant i just be like that? :s im not anorexic even tho my bmi says im a little under weight but i do eat im just really obsessed of when i eat, what i eat and so on and i also weigh myself at least twice a day its ridiculous!!! usualy id just eat fruit and thats it if im feeling "fat" same with u , i dont feel bad for eating fruit. or salads. i sit in my bed and im starving and think to myself why cant i just go get something to eat like a normal person? but in my head im scared! i know its all in the head but i cant help it and no1 understands it i dont even understand it myself. its not a normal way to live and i think we need to get help
This is directed to both of you above posters...We control our brain...In your case and in the case of many who have this problem, we make it believe that we are not hungry....Think we are eating too much...Let it tell us that we must think thin...Both of you need help...Get into a group that can help stimulate your brain (mind) into a new acceptance of eating and being healthy...In the end you will gain a very valuable experience...That being liking yourself and accepting who you are...
I, too, know from past experience what a horrible place it is to be...The best way I can put it is that you have to learn that parts of your brain can outsmart the other....You must learn that you alone control yourself...Believe me, it does work...My best to both of you...
Omg thanks so much for a reply as I've never had anyone give me advice or anything! Just really wanted to hear from someone. u say "believe me... It does work" I believe it does but I'm still not in the right mind to actualy believe it will work for myself I just don't see how I can become normal again:( when I was normal I didn't think I'd get like this?! Strange!!!! Thanks a lot . How do I go about joining a group ?
This can turn into a very serious problem unless you get it under control...As far as getting help, talk to your school counselor...He/she should be able to put you in touch with others who share this problem..This is especially true with the younger generation who wants to be the perfection of this age in their life...If this doesn't work out talk with your doctor...Here again you will be able to find help...
I do want to add that this is something you may have to watch all your life...Your mind can play games with you...You must learn the proper way to eat and diet to follow...This is so important in healing...Even though you are not in the bulimia phase of this disease, this too, plays havoc with your body...Gums receed from the stomach bile...Strain of vomiting can cause a heart murmmer...And this is just the beginning...
Good luck....Stay on the right path...I send you my best wishes...
Well I'm almost 21 almost 22 started when I was 20 . I never feel the need to vomit as I hate being sick but if I do get really full and. Located Ido feel sick and crosses my mind but I never intend I actualy make myself sick. Yeah that's what I wanna do just get on a proper diet and be healthy but my minds gona have to change . I'll try talk to a councillor or a dietician. And gona talk to my doctor too. Thanks!