Wow, you sound just like I did when I was in my early 20's, i'm now in my early 40's and life is much better for me, I must say. I know what you mean that most information doesn't speak much about rapid cyclers, people who can bounce back and forth from mania to depressed in a matter of hours, even minutes, sometimes! Luckily, the form of bp I h... more

I'm curious if you have a certain religious affiliation? Would you mind commenting on that?

I don't think you are "crazy", I think you have the natural tendency to think more deeply than most citizens of the world. Perhaps the drugs, albeit illicit, opened up a new portal for you to experience but was the depth was there all along. When I feel like you do, and I have, I will find myself feeling like i'm about to go off a mental cliff so... more