Thanks robspace, i have not been to treatment and with the job I have I don't think I can. I do hang with non-users and have good sponsor who is also a friend. I just can't make it past a few months. Then a few weeks, then a few days. One day at a time works, or one minute at a time works too. I keep trying and will keep trying. I have never... more

Imagine hating birds in the morning. Imagine hating the sunrise. All things bright and beautiful were dark and menacing. I have had glimpses of mental freedom that you mention and I loved it, but not enough to avoid going back to the darkness. I have finally begun to understand "one day at a time". It is not about what I will or must do tom... more

Thanks richard for the words of support. I did enjoy reading your discussions about nutrition v. Aa. Since I have no stake in either, I believe that there are elements of both that are necessary to keep sober. Getting sober is one thing, but staying sober is another. I could not have stopped my addiction but for aa. But like any good add... more