Have you ever been on the back of a Harley at sunset, riding along the coast, when the sun lights up the horizon in a way that you can't tell where the sky ends and the ocean begins? Or in the mountains after a rain and the air is so clean that it reminds you of when you were a child, when our world was a different place? I'm planning my next adventure and all I need is someone to share it with. A companion to share all life's simple blessings! Whether it be blazing a new trail on a Harley or seeing a play, concert or art exhibit, I enjoy doing and experiencing many different things life has to offer! I especially enjoy doing things I've never experienced before, things that are physically active, mentally challenging, and things that get my adrenaline pumping! I'm looking for a friendship that will blossom into the love affair of a lifetime! I'm secure and happy with the person I've evolved into over the years due to the experiences I've had and the lessons I've learned along the way. I can say I've grown from all life's lessons, both good and bad. My belief in God is a very important part of who I am, but I do not try and force my beliefs on others. I have been blessed with a loving family and great friends who are there for me thru thick or thin, as I am for them. I feel comfortable in most social settings and don't have trouble making new friends, I just haven't met the person I want to spend the rest of my life with yet. I"m very selective with who I get involved with on a deeper level and prefer being good friends before becoming more intimate. If we do commit to taking the relationship to a deeper level, I enjoy the more sensual aspects of a physical relationship. Cuddling, massages, bubble baths together and long slow passionate kisses are some of the things I enjoy sharing with my significant other! However, at my age, I'm not willing to settle....I want it all! Honesty, open communication, intelligence, a best friend, and of course chemistry are the things I'm looking for in a relationship. That is not easy to find, especially the chemistry, but I'm content with my life as it is and will search til I find it or continue to be alone. I believe God has someone for me, I just have to be patient and have faith it will happen in His time, not mine! I'm also not good at juggling relationships and prefer to date only one person at a time, so if I do meet someone I'm interested in, I try to give that person my total attention until we both decide if there is any possibility for anything long term. I do not ask the other person to make the same commitment, it just works better for me! I hope you are the person that will allow me into your life to love you as you have never been loved before! The person I'm looking for is friendly, outgoing, spontaneous, and loves to laugh! I really value a sense of humor as long as you're not funnier than I am...I get to be the funny one, but you get to be the pampered one! Attractiveness is a must, but then real attraction comes from within the heart. I would hope he is secure within himself and content with who he is, and not into baggage and drama...in other words...happy! He takes care of himself both mentally and physically. Regular exercise is a plus, but not necessary however its nice to have your partner working out with you because you both are working to keep yourselves attractive for each other. I want to look and be the best person I can for my man because I know that by this time in my life, God has really saved someone very special for me and I'm not going to let God down (nor that special person). I want the life long love affair that is intimately told about in the book of Solomon. Touch a woman's mind and you get her attention. Touch a woman's heart and you get her love. Touch a woman's soul and you get passion beyond your wildest dreams. Once you have all three, you have found your soul mate for eternity! I'm looking for MY soul mate.

Hockey, Riding horses, Tennis, Reading, Quilting, Internet surfing, Hanging out with friends, Church singings

Me, Myself, & I

KISS, Eminem, GreenDay,

Bible, Harry Potter, Tony Dungy, 7 Habits of Highly Effective People, One Part Angel, When God Winks





I am 42 y/o. I have used Adderal for the last 6 years. During the last two years, I started abusing the drug. I was prescribed 90mg/day and took 4-5x that dose per day. When I would run out before the end of the month, I had my bestfriend "supply" me with some of his extra Addys. I was able to come off of it without a choice b/c I was on the EMSAM patch for depression and the two of those drugs DO NOT mix well together. I started having anxiety/panic attacks and was in the ER 7x since January (this now April). I would take Adderal to wake me up and keep me up. I would then take Klonopin or Xanax to help ease me down and to be able to go to sleep. I, too, was told that I had a major personality change. My pupils were always dialated; I was really thin; I had energy out the waz-zoo; I participated in ALOT of RISKY behaviors. I was constantly warned by my "supplier" that I was going to regret what I was doing with the drug because of the known physical damage it would eventually cause. However, at the time, I was not "ready to hear" what my supplier and other concerned friends were saying to me. I only became "ready" when I became dependent upon the benzos and had to start asking people for money to help me pay for my scripts. To top it all off, my fool psychiatrist just kept handing out the scripts for both drugs and knew I had a problem after I had told him several months ago. My main withdrawal problem was getting off of the benzos. The w/d symptoms were (and still are) EXTREMELY hard to endure. I spent six days in a local hospital with doctors who had no idea of how to bring someone off of benzos. I was not able to go into an official rehab center as I have no insurance d/t no job. I am detoxing on my own with no "official medical supervision", however, a pharmacist friend has been a tremendous help with advice. I am six weeks post my last dose of benzos and greater than 8 weeks post my last dose of Adderal. THE PHYSICAL DAMAGE... I, too, gained 40 lbs back after I quit taking the Adderal. It really freaked me out to gain this much weight b/c I'd had gastric by-pass surgery in 2001 and wasn't supposed to gain any weight back. The WORST physical damage is in my teeth. They are literally starting to decay - every one of them. I am so embarrassed that I consciously will NOT open into a wide grin when I laugh. With God's help, I will get a job again soon and will have dental insurance to fix the ongoing damage to my teeth. Seeing the physical damage is scaring me to death b/c I worry about what other damage is occuring in my body that I can't SEE. I can honestly say that for one to come off of Adderal, they HAVE TO BE READY and able to admit they have a problem. I am currently working the 12-steps right now and it's been a healthy change. I still have my last script for Adderal in my car that I never got filled. I keep it there to remind me of how my entire life crashed within one year due to my substance abuse. I lost my job, my house, my money, my car, my dogs, my friends, my family, everything. However, for today, I am taking it one day at a time and have learned to turn everything over to God. I have two close girlfriends from church who have hung with me during the last six weeks. They have seen the positive change in me since coming home from the hospital up till now. My brother has started communicating with me again (after two years) after seeing that I was taking action to regain control over my life. I want to see my nieces again, which is making me work even harder to stick with staying clean - I hate that term - "staying clean". Again, for one to come off of Adderal, they must mentally be READY to ADMIT they have a problem and their lives have become unmanageable. I only hope that by sharing my experience, I will help save someone else from making the same mistakes I made and losing their foothold in life.