Unsure about pregnancy

Well I was set to go back to school to start some post graduate studie. I'm 21 years old and my SO is 28. My SO and I were in the beginning stages of planning our wedding and we had a couple of expensive trips booked....and then! lol Miss. Surprise came along (If birth control is 99.7% effective she was the 0.3%)

At first I was shocked. Then scared, then angry, then happy....then utterly confused. I didn't know HOW to feel. What was supposed to feel like a blessing suddenly put a huge dent in alot of my life planning. But at my age and stage of life I absolutely could not justify abortion, although aside from that I was beginning to get excited.

Now i'm 19 weeks pregnant with our little girl and i'm telling you this has changed me in ways I didn't think pregnancy could. It has been utterly challenging but I've never felt such love and devotion and i haven't even met her yet.

Also I smoked until I was about....10 weeks pregnant or 11 weeks i'm not sure. Either way the baby is FINE, incase you were concerned about that.

No one can tell you whats best for you just make sure you think it through and discuss it with those around you. I'm sure despite the fact that your mother is suffering through a terrible ordeal she would be more then willing to offer an ear and some helpfl advice.

I wish you tons of luck, and Congratulations