Well Im an 18yr old female.
I started being uncomfortable with people when i was around 15. I slowly stopped going out with friends and became more withdrawn. I was always down and stressed and for a time hurt myself. I stopped doing this and things got better but i lost some friends.
Over time though ive become more withdrawn and now rarely leave the house and only have 1 main friend who i rarly see now that school is over.
While I never saw this as much of a problem, Im starting a new school now and know no one there.
Ive never been good at meeting new people and now want to start working on my problems.
I cant seem to manage small talk and get really self conscious when talking. It ends up in an aquward silence. Even the idea of meeting new people has me anxious as im afraid no one will like me, will find me boring or ill do something stupid.
I dont know why i feel this way, and i seem to be getting worse. Ive never talked to anyone about how i feel and i really dont know why i act like this.
Im now tired all the time, I oversleep and Ive have lost interest in lots of things I used to enjoy.
Shy18, I don't really have any advice for you, but wanted to let you know that you aren't alone. I feel the same way. I'm 34, divorced, with two children. I started seeing a psychologist when my marriage fell apart. He made me see that my only friend was my ex husband and his friends, and that I had no friends of my own. I don't go to him anymore, but I think about what he said all the time and it makes me feel more and more depressed everyday. Even when I get up the courage to actually talk to someone, it is awkward, with other women especially. I would encourage you to continue seeking help as you are doing, and continue to get out and try to meet people. It may be awkward now, but the more you do it, the easier it will be. This is the advice the psychologist gave me, and I'm trying to follow it, although it isn't easy, as you know!