Ugly in a beautiful world

46 yo male. Married---3 kids. Beautiful kids, pretty hot wife. Yet somehow---I am ugly. I am successful but in a job that doesn't require me to be particularly good looking.
I have struggled with my looks my whole life. My face is just really ugly. My kids kind of look like me but they are beautiful. I lost my hair at a young age but even before that struggled mightily with my looks. I guess I am in shape and women enjoy that. Honestly I dont know how to fix it...being around all of these beautiful people makes me realize just how easy it is for them. How they receive praise for being handsome or pretty while us ugly people are treated like we are second class citizens. Its horrible . I am ranting but its all so true and because I am painfully aware of how people perceive me, how they make little jokes behind my back, how I get the "your wife must be really good looking " comments when they see my kids. Its endless. Its---exhausting. I just want to fit in and be at ease in social situations, but instead many times I can only focus on how I look and it just drains me. I dont have anyone I can confide in about this--the few times Ive even mentioned it--those people just treated me weird. Oh and to boot my whole family is very attractive as well. sigh.