about 3 months ago, me and my boyfriend tripped acid at our apartment. this was not our first experience with acid. it was my 7th time tripping and he had done it many other times. everything was going great and we were enjoying ourselves and laughing about everything. things went bad when we decided to watch a timothy leary video we had found a few days before. during the video about 15 minutes in, it started talking about eyes. and it flashed pictures of eyes on the screen over and over again for a good 2 minutes or so. thats when my boyfriend decided to turn off the video because it was making him feel weird and as soon as he did i went into the most terrifying experience of my life. eyes started popping out of everything and everywhere and i couldn't stop thinking about them. this lasted the whole trip.
i continued to smoke weed for a while even after the trip even though it would cause flashbacks and i would be able to see things on a certain pattern that looked like eyes. I finally have kicked smoking weed even though my boyfriend still does. but still every morning i wake up and eyes are the first thing on my mind. I can function normally and i can get my mind off of it and i am able to think about other things but it's always in the back of my mind.
I've been seeing a therapist since about a week after the bad trip and i do believe it helped a lot in the beginning but i'm afraid that I'll never be able to get over what happened and be able to just not think about it.
I know it's not even a big deal if occasionally i spot out something that looks like an eye. it's just my imagination and i shouldn't let it bring me down. but i can't help knowing that it's because of my bad trip.
I'm not crazy. i have a ton of friends and most of them know what's going on. I just want to know that one day maybe in the future that i'll come to terms with what happened and move on. I don't care if i'm never able to smoke weed again. I just want this to be over with.
Stay going to your therapist. Don't let yourself dwell on the eyes thing, unless there is an underlying reason (like something from your past besides just the trip) for why you still keep seeing them. Remind yourself that it was only one bad trip and tell yourself that you won't let the eyes freak you out anymore. Do not underestimate the power of a simple 'No, I will not let this keep going on' type of mindset. Don't know if you're spiritual, but prayer helps for me with things like that. Take care!
When I was younger I used LSd in differant forms and NEVER liked the high. So out of control and seeing things with my eyes that looked very real at the time. It was like my eyes were opened to a differant relm that normally we couldn't see. I understand your fear its like a tormenting thought. Our minds are the battle field, its where it all gets hashed out. It is so good you are seeing a Counselor, I think you have to hash,
process it all out, get your life back and do not let this steal from you anymore.
Well to be honest an lsd withdrawal can result in being "permafried" which means anyone can continue to hallucinate far after a trip is over. Just give it some time. and if you can try and get prescribed Valium it is an anti-anxiety medication. That is pretty much all you can do.
wow ive never heard of anyone else experiancing that! i cant say what i took because it didnt have a street name, was not lsd. but it was not a bad trip for me, but i did CONSTANTLY see eyes in everything! went away after some hours though. i did have a very very bad lsd trip that lasted 20 hours that has me perminitally freaked out.