I have been married now for two years. We have a three and a half year old son and are due to have number two next year.
We had problems before we got married, but have really escaleted over the last couple of months to the point of insanity and nonsensical.
I feel I have always been a rational and calm individual but feel I have really lost my cool.
My husband is an alcoholic, he is one of those people that acknowleges he has a problem and acknoledges he should do something about it but doesnt.
We recently moved into a situation where we live and work together in a small community, I dont feel this is the source of our problems but may aggrevate our situation.
Whenever I try to talk or bring up the things that are hurting me or troubling me, it all goes bad, we end up arguing, it turns into name calling, abuse, blame and most recently I have started lashing out by throwing things and hitting him. This is not normal behaviour for me, it makes me feel crazy!!
I throw options at him, solutions on what we can do, but he says he wont do any of it, that all I want is to get rid of him, but he says he will never leave our situation because of our son, I try to tell him it is not a healthy situation for our son, and this arguing is no good for our unborn child. He just responds by saying I come from a divorced family and look at it as an easy solution.
I want my son to be a balance and well adjusted individual, I want to be a happy and healthy person, I feel this situation is poisening me, I dont know what to do???