I'm only almost seventeen, and I'm fairly sure I have schizophrenia. As far as I can tell from reading about it; it's something along the lines of acute and undifferentiated. I'm starting to get tired of hiding it. Thus far, the only people that know- that I've bothered to tell- are a few very close friends that I know don't judge me for it, that's like four people. and the only reason I felt comfortable telling them is primarily because they could possibly have it too (in a school around 21-2,200 students. that's at least 20 others), or I just trust them that much. Lately, I find myself wanting to tell my mom about it, which is probably a good thing, I know. but it's not like we have the money to get me treated if it turns out that's what I need (wouldn't doubt it at this point). That's the main thing that keeps me from just randomly going up to my teacher or flat out telling my mom "hey, guess what, I think I'm a schizo". well, that and most of the time, I don't want to get treated; sometimes I like my way of thinking just the way it is, even if everyone else calls it crazy (they're just jealous and don't understand). At the moment, my mate is the closest I can get to a therapist, and I know that in the long run, that's just not going to cut it. Simultaneously though, I don't want my mom to have to shell out a bunch of money to treat something that I don't really want to be treated for (she already tried that for my laziness in school- didn't work). Being a Gemini, I also happen to be cursed with indecisiveness, so once again I find myself not knowing what to do, and this seemed like a place that could help.