I am now 18 and I first got depressed when I was 13 - my parents and I moved to another country where I was bullied severely (not phyiscally but emotionally and mentally), I've always been an emotional kid and when we moved to the other country, my older brother and sister were old enough to stay behind so it was just my parents and I.
At first I was mildly depressed, then a year later (4 years ago), it got very bad - I was home sick from school for around 8 weeks with whooping cough and I just couldn't return because I was mocked SO much - I turned to self mutilation and when my parents saw (about 4 months after I began) I was close to killing myself, we immediately moved back home and I was taken off the anti-depressants that I was intially put on and sent to see a cousellor - which did not work because my parents were there with me and I blamed them for a lot of it.
Since then my family pretty much think I'm over my depression except I'm not. I try to hide the fact but it's hard. My boyfriend knows I'm not and he has a lot to put up with - A year ago I started cutting myself again and 5 days ago I was under so much stress and I was so emotional I almost took my own life... I don't know if this is attention seeking on my behalf but I know I'm depressed and I don't know what to do - I try to reach out to people but then I get shut down.
I can't tell my parents - my mother intially considered it a disease and they refused to leave me home alone for more than 10 minutse at a time -which got VERY annoying.

Does anyone have any advice? (I am legally an adult now in my country so I can go visit the doctor etc. without my parents permission)