I have been suffering for a long while. I don't really know what to say but I do need help!! I get so worried and stressed about everything that I can't make deicisions in life! I feel so disguisting I find it really hard to even shower as I dont want to feel myself. I dont like moving too much because i dont want to feel smy stomach.
Running used to help but i ran so much that I have damaged my knee and now I'v had surgery and cant move my leg well! I currently live with my father and step mum. They think I am lazy but infact I am just trapped in myself. I apply for jobs and get rejected. I feel so stuck, I can't do sport, I don't have any friends. I joined a sewing class to make friends but they are all married.
I'm so lonely and stuck. Im so embarrased to tell the doctor all this. My doctor sees me as a happy nice person so it would be weird to tell her that im not happy. We joke a lot and shes been helping me with my knee.
I've started putting on a lot of weight, I was 8st 10 in January and now I am 9st 12
I know how it feels to be alone. Its tough. But (and you dont have to listen to me)I think that for you the most important thing at the moment should be realzing that you r a beautiful girl and that you r worth it and that you have something to offer this life. I can tell you right now that there r people out there that will see you for you and love you and want to b around you. But you cant expect anyone to love you if you cant love yourself. Thats what you should focus on, building a stronger relationship with you, loving and accepting you. It doesnt happen over night, but if you can work on that, it will make a world of difference. Live your life
not sure where you are from, and won't ask. But a lot of people are depressed now days,and getting a job is a lot harder than before. Depression is like a 21st century plague.You are already on the road to recovery, by asking for help. Depression is not your fault it comes and goes, I have lived with it for a long time, and the loneliness also. I went through a really bad time recently, bad times come and go also. You should never fear telling your doctor anything, they get paid to do a job, to help people get better, so speak to your doctor, and let her help you. And people on this forum can help also. I would be a friend