Hello im new to this thing, i joined to ask some questions im too afraid to ask anyone elts so here i go.

Back in the day i was hit by a car when i was riding my bike. I don't remember much from the being hit part but what i do remember vividly is something i cant shake. I remember being on the ground and trying to get up but the pain and my arms and stuff wouldn't work right. It hurt really bad but i don't even remember that much. I remember when the pain stopped and i couldn't here anything. I saw all of this blood comeing from me and i felt something. It felt like a pulling feeling like i was being pulled to the ground.
It was the weirdest feeling i have ever felt. I must have went out after that because the next thing i remember was being in bed at the hospital. But now I'm obsessed with that feeling. I don't know if it was the shock of bleeding and my mind went wiggy or what but I'm obsessed. I have day dreams and dreams when I'm in other situations where I'm slowly bleeding to death and i like them. I guess it is the feeling of dieing i don't really know.
I just wont to know if it means I'm crazy. Ive thought of what it would be like if i tried to simulate that again but that would be crazy. I don't think i would ever do that but the thoughts are still there and it scares me. Just tonight i thought of jumping out of the car on the highway. I know i wouldn't do it but the thought seemed so plausible, "i could do this" was in the back of my mind and it really frightened me. I just wont some advice, i wouldn't try to do something like that but i don't know why i cant stop thinking about it. Pleas someone got to have some advice.

At least it feels good telling someone/thing