The fact that he was honest about his
condition up front is a good sign. I was
"involved" with somebody this past summer
(and I use the term "involved" loosely,
because the entire relationship, if you
will, lasted two months, during which time
we only actually saw each other three
times. In retrospect, it seems I was
involved but he wasn't). I mean
absolutely no disrepect to anybody here
who has bipolar, but this was undoubtedly
the most bizarre "relationship" I have
ever experienced.
There were a number of red flags and
little warning signals going off in my
head throughout, but I dismissed them. As
I look back, the entire relationship was
on his terms and he was extremely
manipulative, yet in a very charming and
disarming way.
In the beginning, he presented himself as
this wonderful, caring, loving man (and
brilliantly smart) and I became hooked.
During the first three weeks or so, we
would chat endlessly on-line. But a
couple of times, he would simply
disappear, right in the middle of a
discussion and then wouldn't reappear for
one to two days. When I would ask him
about it, he would fabricate outrageous
stories about his "absence", which I would
later learn were lies. After about the
third time, I decided I had enough and
wrote him that I got the impression he was
no longer interested, so I was bowing
out...and I wished him well. The next
day, he used the guilt approach by
apologizing and telling me that something
terrible happened to his son (again, found
out later it was just a lie), and that he
was sorry I was bowing out because he
really liked me and he would never just
"end things by disappearing" because he's
a good, caring person. Of course, I was
sucked back into this cyclone, and the
pattern continued and even got worse.
The sweet, charming words that he used in
the beginning to reel me in were
eventually replaced by mean-spirited,
cutting and accusatory remarks. When I
would question him about his behavior or
actions, he said I was being paranoid;
when I would ask if he had a change of
feelings and wanted out of the
relationship, he said I was "projecting".
Needless to say, I was completely
confused and hurt by this extreme change
in his personality.
The last time I saw him, he had invited me
over and we had, what I thought, was a
nice, enjoyable evening. The next night
we spoke on the phone and he became
beligerant with me for asking him a
question, and he abruptly ended the
conversation. That was the end of it. I
tried several times after that to reach
out to him, but to no avail. He would
never respond, even though I saw him
on-line (and very active on the various
internet dating sites!). Finally, a
couple of weeks ago I saw him on line
again and decided to try one more time.
He actually responded, and admitted to me
that he was bipolar, and that he was very
sorry for his behavior.
So, my point to this very long message is
just to be careful. From what I've been
reading on this and other related sites,
is that if a bipolar person is not
following their medication, they can be
extremely erratic in their emotions and
behavior. I would not have walked away
from him in the beginning if he told me
about his illness (he had admitted that he
suffered from depression in the past but
was "better now", and that didn't concern
me). What really bothered me was that he
withheld this information from me from the
start, and also all of the lies he told
along the way. If I had known about his
medical condition, at least I would have
had a much better understanding about his
odd behaviors, rather than thinking that I
was the one who was being paranoid. So
just continue to do your research, and
watch out for the warning signs if he is
having an episode. At least he was honest
with you about it from the start. Best
of luck!