Chanda, why do you take him back if he cheated on you. I know I know you love him and he was your first, but were women we deserve better. You know I was never able to be faithful to any guy, including my husband. But that was when we first started out as a couple, and I told him. Keep your options open, there are to many men out there. But be strong, and keep your legs closed. Play games with them, not them with you. My mother said that once you sleep with one guy you will sleep with all other boyfriends to come. She said that when a guy gets you horny and your still a virgin you could with hold, but when your not its a different story. I've noticed that you posted before about josh and some problems, and that you did not want to be lectured. Well i'm not, what I mean is that if he could have fun so can you, but only you know your limit and when to stop. Think about it, if he loves you so much there should be no body else, but you.
Brenda