Thank you ladies! I really appreciate the feedback.
I know its for the best and I am supporting dh as best I can. (he has no idea that I was feeling that way). I know that it is best for my family. It was just really overwhelming yesterday for some reason. You gotta love hormones!! I swear, I will not miss taking them. Not one bit. But, I spoke to my dr yesterday and she told me I have to finish this cycle of meds (2 more days of estrogen, then 10 days of estrogen and progesterone) because If I stop now, it could screw my cycle up even worse. (like that could happen

) But, the withdrawl bleeding that I
should get would count as a period and I could start my bc again after that. So, maybe I'll turn back into a normal person again.