I've been with this female for about 2 years now and have come across a problem that now dominates my relationship. I am at the point that I seriously don't know what is wrong with me, and I'm seriously looking for an explanation.
I can not handle anyone having attraction towards my girlfriend...at all. When I explain my issue to people, at 1st they just assume that I'm just insecure or posessive and I'm scared my girlfriend will leave me. Not the case. I love her, she loves me, the love is all there. I hae zero thoughts of anyone taking her from me, I truely believe her when she tells me that she only wants me. When I'm in public with my girlfriend and guys start looking at her I get an immense feeling of disgust, to the point I want to vomit. I can't handle anyone telling me my girlfriend is pretty, at all, male or female. I have an immense feeling of disgust, and I don't know where this comes from. As a result of thise, I get uncontrollably angry, to the point I get into fights. The moment we step out the house, I turn into a watchdog. I stare every single male in the face that we walk by, just to let him know byway of a look, "don't dare look at her." And this is cause...I HATE that feeling I get in my stomach. It makes me feel terrible. I'm at the point I refuse to go out in public with her, she can go out, I'm just not going out with her. I'm sick of it. It haunts me. I'm afraid to have her meet anymore people from my life because if they ever gave her that look....the look like..."she's hot". I'd have no choice but to have instant, sincere hatred towards them....and I am very expressive, I hold nothing in, I always let my feelings be known, good or bad.
I haven't gone outside with my female in over 3 months, mind you we live together.
I've always had a bit of this with previous relationships, but it has never been this intense. The reason for the intensity is that this girl is irregularly attractive. Not like "really pretty". I mean she can't go anywhere with out everyone staring. It's absolutely disgusting. And I don't live in a small town either, I live in a major city, with a lot of people, and she's still a big deal. I've tried to break up with her several times, but she won't let go. I thought it would be best for my mental health, but she will not let go. I don't know what's wrong with me, or what to do.
The fact you call her female may indicate that YOU DO have insecurity issues.
Get some professional advice on how to deal with it. It seems too be tearing you up. Because you can not control the fact other people will look, so you are gonna have to find ways to deal with the feels you let yourself have.
Well I can't say I know how you feel but it sounds like you are jealous. I mean,its only looking.even if a chic tells you she's pretty,thats crazy that it bothers you?Maybe you need to go to a psychologist to get help and try and find out what your problem is. . .I don't think by breaking up with her that it would help.thats a temporary solution to a log term problem.what if you get with another chic and its the same?are you going to break up with her also?You will be lonely for the rest of your life or end up with someone that is not for you.I hope things get better for you.
You seem to have an issue with jealousy that is interfering withyour ability to have a normal relationship with a woman. It is unfair of you to punish her by not going anywhere with her, or punish others by fighting due to this unnatural level of jealousy. The fact that you recognize that this is not due to normal relationship issues indicates that you have a strong desire to change. I reccomend some couples counseling where you can get your issues out into the open. Also, watch the movie ".Othello" with Laurence Fishburne. It is a really good look into the psyche of a jealous man, and the comlications it can cause.